Please Permit Me To Love You Forever

Rong Yan said impatiently, “I don’t have the time to listen to your love history.”

Yang Yan seemed to not hear Rong Yan’s words and continued, ” but I didn’t like any of them. They were too young, too impetuous, immature, not steady, and not responsible at all. After that, I met Gu Hesheng, who was a master’s student. He was really charming when he was young, and I fell in love with him at first sight. Later, I dated him and got to know his roommate, Lu guinong.

“Lu guinong and Gu Hesheng were completely different people. At that time, Gu Hesheng was a very cold and quiet person. When I was with him, he didn’t know how to coax girls. Sometimes, when I quarreled with him, it was Lu guinong who came over to talk to me. He would even give me some small things to make me like them. Gradually, I realized that I liked both of them at the same time, and neither of them wanted to let go of Yingluo.”

Rong Yan looked out of the window. No one knew if she had heard Yang Yan’s words.

the weather outside had already turned warm, and the tender green leaves were swaying slightly in the wind.

Yang Yan took out a comb from under her pillow and slowly combed her hair, which had turned completely white and fallen off. She calmly described what she had experienced that year.”after that, i carried gu hesheng and continued to be in an ambiguous relationship with lu guinong, until one day when we went out to play, i had an argument with gu hesheng and he left first. i was very angry and drank a lot of wine. after that, i slept with lu guinong for the entire night. when the sun rose, i was very afraid. i was afraid that gu hesheng would find out, but lu guinong hugged me and said that he would take responsibility. last night, he couldn’t control his emotions and said that he liked me. he said that he liked me since the first time yingluo saw me. Hmph, Yingluo has nothing but his mouth.”

“But I was young then, and I just had to believe Yingluo, so once or twice. Even after I got back together with Gu Hesheng, I still maintained a relationship with Lu guinong until I found out that I was pregnant with Yingluo. Then, I went to look for Lu guinong. I thought that was his child, but he turned hostile on the spot and used all kinds of words that were the most difficult to hear to insult me. He said that who knew that I had illicit affairs with a few men, and who knew who the bastard in my stomach was? After he drove me away, he got someone to report me to the school that I was pregnant. He used all kinds of despicable means to get me expelled from the school, but two days later, Yingluo and Gu Hesheng happened to not be in Yingluo, so I had no choice but to go home, Yingluo.”

yang yan glanced at rong yan, her eyes flashing with a somewhat crazy smile. ” but it didn’t end when I left school. The tragedy of my life had just started then. Because I was pregnant, I was kicked out of the house less than half a day after I entered the house. I didn’t have a single cent on me when I was kicked out.

Later, I found a job until I gave birth to you. In the beginning, I thought that Yingluo’s child was innocent. Since you were born, I had to support you, even though I hated you when I saw you back then. You remind me of how Lu guinong humiliated me, but I’ve never thought of mistreating you or abandoning you. ”

I wanted to work hard and support you. Later on, I met my first man after leaving school. He was very good to me and said that he wanted to marry me. However, when he found out that I had a child, the way he looked at me changed immediately. The next day, he broke off all ties with me. He said that he didn’t want to raise a child who was not related to him by blood. He didn’t want a child who was not related to him to call him father..