BXBX NOVEL Chapter 335
Edited by Psycho S.
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“I won’t,” Bing Shi finished her first bunny apple and with satisfaction, she eyed the peeled fruit “Change my opinion. Not ever.”
“SILIKA LIN!” Yelling out, her father grabbed his heart in pain.
Bing Shi got startled slightly when her father began breathing harshly and he almost fell from his chair; was he... having a heart attack because of her decision, for her body?
Xuan Mu ran around to support the elderly man and took him towards the couch while his wife didn’t give her father a single glance of concern.
Too pissed off, she continued to peel her bunny apples. She knew other people’s tolerance and learned how far she could take it. She might not look like it, but Bing Shi was far from a perfect lover. She had her shortcomings too. If not mentioned, they were easy to overlook.
Her father grabbed Xuan Mu’s hand, “Please, forgive my daughter. She’s a good girl.”
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“I know,” answered Xuan Mu, “There is nothing to apologize for.”
“Call me father from now on. Welcome to our humble family, son,” said Mr. Lin. This man was an orphan. That was good.
After getting to know his daughter better, he would never forgive himself if he allowed Silika to be a part of Li Jie’s family. He was worried about what they might think of his daughter. Who knows? She might be bullied by Li Jie’s relatives because of Silika’s strange opinions.
“Do I have to call an ambulance?” Bing Shi grabbed her father’s medication from a counter and poured him a cup of water, walking towards the couch she let him take some. Faking some concern was better than showing nonchalance, right? It could make him happy... probably.
“N-no,” her father swallowed the pill and flushed it with water, glad that his obedient daughter was back, “Silika, I called you here because of your mother. She wasn’t the best wife and mother, but I believe she learned her lesson. She suffered enough. We should give her a second chance.”
The main reason his ex-wife divorced him (Silika’s father) was because of the debts his daughter got them into- at this moment, he couldn’t blame his wife for her past actions. His wife was only doing what she thought best.
“Alright,” Bing Shi would agree to his words without protest. She couldn’t be as selfless as him, but she could at least pretend. She chose not to exhaust herself over the old Silika’s personal matters, “Can Lukas move in here too? I don’t want him to stay alone.”
Even though he would rather not, Xuan Mu moved in the same day. How could he leave his wife alone with two elderly people?
Bing Shi was suffocating from wearing the facade of a filial daughter to her parents; she didn’t like staying here at all. No matter how nice her father treated her, and how much he loved her, it didn’t feel good. What others would give for something like fatherly and motherly love, she would cross the street just to avoid it.
She sounded very ungrateful, didn’t she? When they met as teenagers and she complained about how a certain type of love made her feel very uncomfortable, he wanted to exchange his parents with hers to make her realize how fortunate she was to receive at least some kind of affection from her family. In the end, she didn’t really care about his opinion and stuck to her beliefs.
Xuan Mu was about to stroke her calf, but she avoided his touch and walked into her room. He immediately let go of her father and chased after his wife.
It was like everyone expected Bing Shi to understand everyone, but nobody tried to understand her. Everybody came first, while she came second. Compared to others, her struggles seemed trivial.
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Bing Shi locked the door before his face but how could a simple lock stop someone like him?
Xuan Mu touched the handle, and with ease, he opened the door together with his wife who used all her strength to try and close it back. Picking her up, he held her face gently, from her eyes, down her cheeks, “I’m sorry.”
She hated it when he turned her anger and fury into tears. Gritting her teeth, she avoided his gaze with a scoff. She could see it; that hidden desire he showed during dinner time, “For what?”
“For wanting a little Bing Shi,” saying quietly, he collected her tears that were labelled with pain, stopping their tracks with his lips.
He didn’t lie when he said that he wouldn’t want to share her with anyone. She was his woman, and he wouldn’t allow anything nor anyone to change that. He would often daydream about how they’d take care of little Bing Shi together even more so now that he had enough power to protect them and she was about to finish her mission.
“You LIED to ME!” She hissed with a cracked voice as if someone just poured a glass of acid down her throat, “You’ve been deceiving me this whole time about such an important thing!”
“And risk the chance of you leaving me?!” His lips trembled as he spoke, hugging her tighter.
It was her very first requirement for a partner before they even started dating. He would have lied if he said that he wasn’t trying to deceive her. People’s opinions change, right? She might change hers, “It’s just a stupid curiosity of mine. It’s not something I need. You’re not obliged to heed to my wishes. You weren’t even supposed to find out! Bing Shi- look, I know! I broke our vow! But still, it doesn’t change a thing about what I feel towards you!”
Looking up at the ceiling, she shook her head in ridicule. His feelings... they just burned a hole in her heart, “Stop touching me.”
She thought he was like her: someone who didn’t want to have babies. Even if he came to want some, he should have at least respected her decision to not want them. In the end, however...
His whole body shuddered in cold sweat, “No.”
“Then keep talking... that is, if you want me to hate you.”
Letting go, he felt how the heart he gave to her in his teens was thrown back at his face. He made one little mistake, and as punishment, she ruthlessly built a thick barrier around herself with no way for him to get to her. This was what happened when one broke her trust and, much to his despair, despite all the time they spent together, he was no exception.
He clenched his fists tightly and dug his nails into his palms from frustration as he watched Bing Shi leave him behind. Like a ghost, he followed behind her, “Do you still love me?”
“Of course I still love you but...” answered Bing Shi. She walked into her wardrobe and took out her pyjamas. She wanted to take a shower so she could get rid of phantom touches on her skin, “When you touch me... I feel very uncomfortable.”
His hints became just too obvious- too obvious for someone ‘smart’ like him. The only thing that stopped him from having babies was her bad health. Now that he had that power, he was trying to persuade her into something she really, really didn’t want.
Her thoughts began to spiral, and she found herself drowning in a sea of her own sadness, “Maybe the almighty Proxy should turn back time and let me forget about what happened. Isn’t that what you planned to do in case something went out of control with your wife?”
He gripped his neck as fear climbed at his breath. Her words possessed a pair of hands that wrapped tightly around his lungs. Why did her senses become so sharp?!
He, who enjoyed every moment with his wife, wanted to turn back time in order to erase (and rewrite) the mistake he made. However, that was no different from adding oil to the water. His efforts would only hide his secret for a certain amount of time, “What do I have to do for you to forgive me?”
“Take care of yourself and look for a surrogate mother or whatever,” her lips raised as she tried to wipe off her tears. She felt like an anchor that was just thrown into the sea bottom; she had hit rock bottom to keep the ship above the water’s surface secure, so it would not be devastated by a heavy storm, “I know you love me, but I really don’t want to be anywhere close to you right now.”
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