BXBX NOVEL Chapter 456 PATHETIC
Chapter 456 PATHETIC
Jayden knew that what he had done at that time was something he had to do, and to be honest, he didn\'t really feel guilty or sorry for what he did.
Because in such a situation, he was only left with two choices; him being killed by them or him killing them first.
Indeed, the two choices were not fun things to do, but if he had to choose, of course Jayden would choose to live.
It was just that, even though Jayden didn\'t feel guilty, he was still just a fifteen year old teenager who was never really forced to deal with a precarious situation. After all, he was surrounded by bodyguards who would protect him round the clock.
Therefore, this event would always be etched in his heart and he would not be able to just get rid of it.
His first murder made Jayden have to go in and out of the therapy room, getting counselled from a psychiatrist who helped him to talk, talk about the problems he was experiencing.
It was just that Jayden felt reluctant to bring up the memory again, he felt that it was better to just keep it hidden and didn\'t need to remember it.
However, as a side effect, Jayden became obsessed about finding the organization until he could think of nothing but bringing them down.
Ramon had indeed caught those who were involved in Jayden\'s kidnapping, but he didn\'t want to delve into the matter deep enough and objected to finding out who was behind the organization.
But, not for Jayden.
He wanted to get them.
"How did you feel when you found out that you killed that man?" Apple asked, listening intently to every word Jayden said.
For a moment, Jayden was a little taken aback by the question, because he thought Apple would see him differently, but no, the girl didn\'t show any fear or any judgmental attitude toward him.
Discussing this issue with Apple was like he was discussing a business plan that he was really interested in. Jayden didn\'t feel forced or pressured to talk about this to the girl.
"Nothing," Jayden answered honestly. "I was silent for a moment, but at that moment, I didn\'t think I had the luxury to feel pity for them."
Apple fell silent when she heard this, her eyes showing that she was listening carefully to whatever Jayden was saying right now.
"They\'ll kill me if I don\'t kill them first." Jayden shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. "I think, at that time, my survival instinct kicked in."
Apple nodded, she knew how that felt. She also might do the same thing. When you were in danger, of course you would do anything to save yourself.
"Then what makes you feel afraid of ships?"
Jayden chuckled when he heard this. Maybe it was the effect of the medicine he had taken, or the effect of the rain outside. This type of weather could make your defenses a little lower and leave you a bit vulnerable in expressing your feelings.
"I\'m not afraid of boats, I don\'t feel comfortable being on a lot of water." Jayden then closed his eyes. The effects of the medicine started to work, he felt much calmer now. "I don\'t like being on a boat that bobs around, and makes me feel like I\'m in the middle of the ocean."
And that was when something clicked in Apple\'s head.
She remembered this story from her father. At the time of the rescue, Jayden was found in a small boat, after he managed to escape from the big ship that was going to take him somewhere after they got the ransom from Ramon Tordoff.
Jayden, who at that time was only fifteen years old, was adrift in the middle of the high seas for approximately eighteen hours before he was found and rescued.
Therefore, he was afraid to be in a ship or on the high seas. That was the origin where he developed his trauma from.
"Jayden?" Apple called out to him again, but found the man had fallen asleep with his soft snoring audible.
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Jayden had slept all day. He even missed a few meetings and made Adrian shake his head at his boss\'s behavior.
How could he sleep all day when they had a big mission that night to catch the \'shipping\' that was about to happen?
On the other hand, Apple could understand that, because she could understand why Jayden did that. It was his way of coping with his trauma.
Where tonight he would again be faced with a situation that would trigger his own trauma.
That was why he was preparing himself in this way, although it sounded a little strange, but that was what happened.
However, Jayden seemed to be much better off, because when they were on their way to their appointed place, he was acting as usual.
Even Apple didn\'t expect this to be the same man who talked about his fears a few hours ago.
"Don\'t look at me like that all the time, you\'ll be seduced by my charms." Jayden winked at her and Apple snorted disdainfully, feeling that her worry was just a pointless feeling.
There was nothing to worry about this creature. Apple then put on her helmet and got on the motorbike.
"Are you sure you want to ride this?" Jayden asked, glancing at Apple\'s motorcycle with an uncertain look in his eyes.
"Of course," Apple replied for the umpteenth time.
"She\'s much better at riding a motorbike, than a car." A voice echoed within the basement before its owner\'s figure appeared from behind a car.
Hearing the sudden voice, Jayden and Apple nearly jumped in shock.
"Stop doing that!" Jayden grumbled. "Stop appearing all of a sudden. I thought you were a ghost."
"Right," Apple chimed in.
Unbeknownst to the two of them, both of them were afraid of ghosts, they were somehow very brave in fighting the enemy, but not so brave when dealing with invisible creatures.
"Both of you are pathetic," Misha said as he got into his car.