BXBX NOVEL Chapter 199 199: Not Like I Don't Want To Live
From the Franc Clan, the closet was the Mansion of the Blood Lord that Ramiun had killed. He believed that either Vor would go to that Blood Lord\'s mansion, which was empty, or the Blood Council Mansion.
Under the illusion of his misunderstanding that Vor came to the Franc Clan, he didn\'t even consider any other possibility. Vor hadn\'t arrived at the Franc Clan. And the place where he went next, the closest Blood Lord Domain to that forest, belonged to none other than Ramiun himself!
Ramiun called for the Blood Lord meeting at his own Castle since it was the farthest from the Franc Clan compared to the Domains of the other Blood Lords or even the main mansion. He didn\'t realize that he had called the meeting in the exact place where Vor was going, albeit very slowly.
Vor wasn\'t the only one who was going to Ramiun\'s mansion either. There was another group that was going there... The group of Atlas who needed the last Fragment from Ramiun!
Atlas didn\'t want anything to do with the Blood Council. His business only concerned Ramiun, and that\'s what he wanted to deal with.
Facing Ramiun alone was also much easier than facing the entire Council. It was also much faster.
"We should be there in a few days. Not bad, considering we\'ll still have two weeks before my month is done," Atlas was quite optimistic at the moment. Everything was moving smoothly.
The only concern was Luna\'s Empire, but if even they couldn\'t locate him, then he believed he had time to finish his unfinished business. There was no way her brother was going to be in Ramiun\'s Castle.
And from that point, it was only easier. They just needed to pick up Misella\'s body and take her to the place where he was going to bring her back to life...
He had finished the hardest part of his entire journey. He never felt as calm as he did now. There was no progenitor to fight for the next fragment.
All he had was Ramiun, who wasn\'t much of a threat before him and Lilith. After fighting a Progenitor and the Franc Clan head, Atlas had gained quite a lot of experience, which made him quite strong. He was able to draw out more of Castiel\'s strength. He believed he could even stand his own ground before a Progenitor now, at least for some time.
"Two weeks only..." Lilith muttered. "After that you...."
"After that, I what? After that, I disappear?" Atlas smiled in response. "One day, everyone disappears. It\'s not that surprising. I\'m on borrowed time, after all. I\'m not even supposed to exist, so I don\'t think I\'ll disappear. I\'ll just go where I belong."
"And where is it that you belong?" Lilith asked.
"Possibly afterlife? If there exists one. Oh wait, I forgot. There\'s no afterlife for me..." Atlas slapped his forehead, unable to believe he forgot something so important.
From what he was told, his soul was going to be destroyed once his time was up. If the afterlife even existed, he had no way to get there. He was going to disappear forever, merging with nothingness.
"What are you two talking about?" Luna stated to the two in confusion, not understanding what was being talked about. "Where are you going to disappear? And why?"
"Oh, I meant this iteration of me," Atlas responded, sticking with the story. "After two months, my memories will return, resetting to what they were before I came into existence. So in other terms, after two weeks, I will disappear forever."
Luna tilted her head sideways. "I honestly don\'t understand what you\'re talking about honestly. You\'re saying you\'ll disappear when you make an appearance?"
"Think of it as another personality," Lancaster chimed in to help her understand what he thought of it as. "When his memories disappeared, he became a completely new person. It was a completely new personality, like a new person. In other words, he became a different person, despite being the same on the outside."
"But if the old personality returns, this personality will be erased," he added. "That reminds me..."
He focused back on Atlas. "Can\'t we find a way to make sure you also exist? Like a way that your current memories stay and merge with your old memories? That should ensure you exist!"
So far, Lancaster was informed that there was no way to stop this from happening, but he wondered if this way, some semblance of Atlas could be saved. He didn\'t want to lose Atlas, and if there was a way, it was worth an attempt.
"I don\'t think that would be possible either. But maybe..." Since Atlas didn\'t want to disappoint others, he did give them some hope that it might be possible. In any case, it wasn\'t as if Castiel wasn\'t going to have his memories.
Castiel knew everything that he did. Castiel saw everything. So he definitely wasn\'t going to consider Lancaster a stranger. It was the same for Misella.
So far, from what he understood about Castiel, he was a compassionate person. He was helping him in any way he could. Atlas didn\'t believe that Castiel was going to treat Lancaster or Misella badly. If anything, he was going to treat them like he did Lilith. He was going to keep them safe.
Moreover, after Misella became a Progenitor, she was going to need a teacher who could teach her what she was capable of. To Atlas, Misella was quite naive since she was young. What better teacher for her than Castiel himself!
For a moment, there was complete silence in the carriage. Atlas looked out the window, immersed in his own thoughts.
\'Not like I don\'t want to live for longer. Not like I\'m not scared to die and disappear forever... I also want to live. I also want to see more of this world... I also want to make friends... Have fun with them.\'
\' Who in this world wants to disappear forever? But there\'s no way. I am already dead. I can\'t ask Castiel to just give me his body for an eternity. That would be quite insincere to even ask after all he did for me.\'
\'I\'ve already used his body long enough. It\'s time for me to return his body to him and just disappear... If only there were a way for me to exist... But even the Fragments won\'t be able to bring me back to life like Misella. Unfortunately, my soul isn\'t free like hers… My soul is tied and destined to be destroyed.\'