BXBX NOVEL Chapter 361 Unsettling Feeling
Meng Renshu opened his eyes, and his body felt heavy.
The first thing he recognized was his room's ceiling and the room's darkness.
"I dreamed about the past again," Meng Renshu muttered. At this point, he was already accustomed to it and didn't panic anymore.
This time he could dream about the past even without Li Caiyi by his side.
'Does it mean I can naturally regain my own memory from now on?'
So far, the pieces of the dream he saw were fragmented and didn't have a particular timeline to them.
He could dream about one thing and continue in a completely different scene on the next one. It made him unsure as there were still a lot of missing pieces he couldn't remember.
One thing was for sure, he had wronged Li Caiyi in the past. And that was the reason she could never open up her heart to him anymore.
"But what's the point of remembering if it only makes Xiaoyi keep her distance from me?"
Alone in his room, Meng Renshu's mind unknowingly recalled the horror and disdain in Li Caiyi's eyes as he looked at him. Her cold words were like a knife stabbing him in his chest.
Everything was over. Li Caiyi knew now he was aware of what was happening, and she would never look at him the same way again.
"I shouldn't have told her. Although she probably won't like me if I just pretended to know, she can't hate me that much either." Meng Renshu pulled his hair in frustration.
Nevertheless, what's done couldn't be reverted anymore. And honestly, Meng Renshu had no confidence he could keep it hidden forever from her.
From what he knew, Li Caiyi was already suspicious of him. It was only a matter of time before everything came into the light of day.
Not to mention, he had a feeling that he would never be able to get through to her if he pretended not to know forever. Before, there was a big wall separating them. An invisible wall which he didn't know when and why it existed.
Now that he remembered some part of his previous life, he began to see holes in that wall, which seemed impenetrable before. If he could talk to her properly and straighten the misunderstanding, would she forgive him for everything?
"Xiaoyi even took her own life, so I bet this won't be easy."
But he was willing to try.
Li Caiyi spent one lifetime chasing after him. It was his turn to chase after his wife now.
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Day passed by more peacefully than Li Caiyi thought. From Li Chunhua, she heard that Meng Renshu had returned to school, but he surprisingly behaved well. He didn't come looking for her, nor did he ever try to contact her after their visit that day.
Li Caiyi thought that he would seek her to judge her for her rash decision in her previous life. Considering how much he hated her, it was obvious what she did could only be seen as an inconvenience for him.
But forget about scolding her; she even had a feeling that Meng Renshu probably avoided her in the last few days. What an unexpected turn of events.
'Did he perhaps feel guilty for what happened to me in the past?' Li Caiyi thought to herself as she bit on her rice.
'No, he is probably too lazy to bother with me anymore. Now that he remembers everything, he should know that his feelings towards me are a big misunderstanding.'
If Meng Renshu regained his memory, wouldn't his love for Li Chunhua also awaken? She wouldn't be surprised if he had already forgotten about her by now.
"Come to think of it, I haven't seen him around these days."
Li Caiyi flinched when Feng Nian suddenly said that. "H-huh? Who are you talking about?"
"What? Were you even listening to what we were talking about? I'm talking about her dog." Feng Nian replied while pointing at Chen Ruolan.
"O-oh. I see." Li Caiyi grinned sheepishly.
"He had a bad stomach ache a few days ago and needed someone to properly look after him. He is an old dog, after all. So we let him stay with my grandparents in the meantime." Chen Ruolan replied.
"Hope he can get better soon." Feng Nian said sympathetically before turning her gaze to Li Caiyi. "And you, what are you getting flustered about?"
"Nothing at all." Li Caiyi shook her head immediately.
"Seriously, you are always spacing out. Are you perhaps thinking about what I'm thinking right now?"
"W-what are you thinking?"
Feng Nian smiled slyly before slamming her hand onto the table. "About our field trip, of course!"
Li Caiyi sighed in relief inwardly. For a moment, he thought Feng Nian could read her mind. "Uh, yes, of course!"
"I know it. I wonder where we will go this year? I can't wait for it to happen soon. Just for your information, I'm happy to go anywhere."
Zhou Ya giggled. "Nian Nian likes traveling after all. It hasn't been announced yet, but I bet you already packed your things."
"Traveling is always fun when you do it with friends. This will be our first trip with Caiyi, so I'm looking forward to it even more."
This was probably the first time Li Caiyi saw Feng Nian smile that brightly. She was the most nonchalant among them, so she rarely expressed so much interest in something like this.
"Do you like traveling? I never know."
"Haha, she always calls me a movie maniac, but I think it's more strange for a person to like outdoor activity so much." Chen Ruolan added.
"Your obsession with movies is unhealthy. Don't lump me in the same category as you," Feng Nian grumbled.
"But I hope we can go somewhere cooler during this year's field trip. Summer is already around the corner, and the weather is always blazing hot outside." Zhou Ya groaned while trying to fan herself with a book.
"You are right. Perhaps a trip to the sea or mountain will be good."
"Stop, don't jinx it! I'll die if we go anywhere without an internet connection!" Chen Ruolan nudged Li Caiyi's side.
Li Caiyi chatted with her friends until lunchtime was over.
Feng Nian's prediction came true because an announcement about the school trip was posted on the school news board at the end of school time.
Everyone was excited about it. Li Caiyi was no exception because this would be her first field trip with friends. Little did she know that this field trip wouldn't go as smoothly as expected.