Chapter 119 Sever Our Connection (1)
"Xiaoyi, wait for me!" Li Chunhua called as she chased Li Caiyi, making the latter stop in her tracks.
Li Caiyi covered her face with both hands to hide how emotionally disturbed she was now for a while before she raised her head to face her sister. "What is it?"
"What do you mean 'what'? Where are you going?"
"I'm leaving, of course. You can stay behind and explain the situation to the police. There is no need for me to stay too."
Li Chunhua bit her lips in hesitation. "Is that because you are angry at Brother Renshu, or you are still angry at me?"
Li Caiyi: "...."
Her silence only made Li Chunhua more anxious. She hurriedly grabbed Li Caiyi's hand and gave it a slow rub with her thumb. "I'm sorry for what I did at school earlier. I was going too far."
Li Caiyi didn't answer immediately and only looked down at their intertwined hands. She felt numb and tired of everything.
Li Chunhua, Meng Renshu. Both of them were the genuine couple in her previous life, a pair of true lovers who unfortunately got separated. They were both two people whom she cherished and loved so much. Despite everything that happened, Li Caiyi was given a chance to redo her life, but why?
Why did these two keep blocking her way? Was it fun for them to control and play with her like this?
Everything she experienced in her previous life was caused mainly by deception and manipulation behind her back. It made her wonder if there was nobody who sincerely cared about her in her past life.
Everyone only saw her as a convenient person, a tool, or a toy. Li Caiyi spent her previous life for others, yet she gained nothing in the end, not even a familial love, like a fool.
At the end of that road, she was still alone. She was convinced that no one cared, even if she disappeared.
In this life, too, Li Chunhua kept forcing her feelings onto her, as though Li Caiyi didn't have her own burden to bear. She basically wanted her to endure everything silently and played a good sister role for her forever. Li Chunhua's obsession and madness had cornered her, and she couldn't take it anymore.
Li Caiyi was just too tired of struggling. Love, hope, and peace were something she couldn't get from her family, no matter how many times she was reborn.
The overwhelming emotions inside her, combined with the slight effect of alcohol, made her unable to control her emotion well. With a cold expression, she yanked her hand away from her sister's grasp.
Li Chunhua's eyes widened in astonishment. She looked up and was greeted by the empty gaze of her sister. Her voice trembled as she muttered, "Xi-Xiaoyi?"
"Don't call my name," Li Caiyi muttered in a low voice. "Because you are also the same as those people, Li Chunhua."
The younger twin could sense something different about Li Caiyi from the way she spoke. Li Caiyi didn't even call her using her nickname as usual. It made the younger twin flustered. "How could you say that? We are twins, and our connections are deeper than anyone in this world."
"Connection?" Li Caiyi sneered, "If there is such a thing, then I want to sever that connection."
Li Chunhua felt like she was just getting a slap in the face. She looked at Li Caiyi in disbelief. "W-what are you saying?"
"I don't want to be tied down with you any longer. Since I have saved you today, I didn't owe you anything anymore. I want to be happy, and I want you to be happy too. But if you are going to block my way every time, then I have no choice but to leave you."
Li Chunhua received a massive amount of damage from her words. Those words were something she feared the most, and even more so if they came from her beloved twin. She was so shocked she couldn't form a coherent response, "B-but… I… You…"
"If I let you ruin me more than this, there won't be any meaning for my second chance. Let's stop here, Li Chunhua."
Li Chunhua didn't understand a single thing she said and said in a panic, "Xiaoyi! Are you perhaps drunk from drinking too much? I can't believe you said that!"
"I'm not drunk. I'm in my most sober state in all my lives combined into one right now," Li Caiyi said coldly, and Li Chunhua couldn't bear to be looked at like that by her.
She clenched her hand into a fist before she said sadly, "Sure enough, you have forgotten our promise. You are the one who said you need me, and we will always be together. If you said that, then what am I supposed to do?"
Li Caiyi kept her silence, but a frown formed on her face. "I have never forgotten that promise. I even said I will take you with me; you are the one who refused to listen to anything I said."
"It's because you broke your promise first!" Li Caiyi yelled out of frustration. "You suddenly dared to talk back to Dad and Mom. You have friends who will stand up for you, and you have a talent you can depend on. I know you want to run away from our house, but have you ever stopped to think about how I feel when I see you like that? You have everything while I have none. Why can't you see how lonely it makes me feel? Everything became a mess after you changed! Why can't you just stay wherever you are?!"
Li Caiyi's mouth opened in awe, but later her mouth curved in a crooked smile. "Haha, so that's what it is. Li Chunhua, I must have been blind to even believe you truly cared for me, even for a second."
Li Chunhua was speechless when she saw tears flowing down Li Caiyi's cheek as she spoke. Why was she crying? The one who wanted to cry the most was her!
Meanwhile, Li Caiyi silently counted how many things Li Chunhua had without trying in her previous life. Everything always went smoothly for her, like she was God's most favored child. Family, love, career, she had it all.
On the other side, Li Caiyi slowly became an unfeeling doll with some status. Even up to the end of her miserable life, everyone stood by Li Chunhua's side while she was alone with nothing.