BXBX NOVEL Chapter 784
Chapter 784: Side Story of Xing Jiu ‘an’s previous life (4)
Translator: 549690339
Xing Jiu ‘an was trapped here. He wanted to break free, but he couldn’ t.
Her temper was getting weirder.
Occasionally, she would see Huo Chulan smile when she looked at her.
It was an expression of a scheme that was about to succeed, which made her extremely disgusted. However, she could not do anything about it!
She seemed to have started to care about the Huo family.
But she clearly didn’t want to!
She did not want this to happen!
She should hate the Huo family!
However, she just couldn’t control herself!
It was like a person who had never been loved, desperately trying to get other people’s love, wanting other people to love him!
But why?
The thing she had never lacked since she was young was love!
When she was done washing the fruits, Huo Yunqi told her not to wash them since no one was going to eat them anyway. It was as if he had let go of her.
She had her own pride, and that pride did not allow her to beg for anything!
And it was what she had the least!
She could finally leave this place.
However, she realized that she seemed to have really changed.
She returned home again, and for some reason, she quarreled with Mu Qing!
However, she clearly did not want to!
She wanted to escape, but no one could help her.
She was finally a little afraid!
Xing Jiu ‘an would chat with Ji Shu occasionally, and when she was with Ji Shu, she was more at peace.
She wanted Ji Shu to help her, but she couldn’t bring herself to.
She could only tell Ji Shu that she seemed to have a problem.
But what was the problem?
She couldn’t say it.
She had spoken to Ji Shu many times and she felt that she was a little strange!
But what was strange? She couldn’t say it.
She had a lot of family and friends, but she suddenly felt like she was all alone.
No one could help her.
She had fallen into a terrible situation, but she could not struggle out of it.
She wanted to go home, but she had to fight with Mu Qing and they would part on bad terms!
She hated going back to the Huo family, but she would still go back often, which only made her more annoyed!
She felt like she was possessed.
After struggling for a while, her mood became worse and worse, and she rarely went back to see her senior brother.
She had always felt that she should be very eager for her parents to like her, but they did not like her.
However, she still wanted to get this love desperately, like a moth flying into the fire.
Unfortunately, she was extremely stupid!
She was living alone in the house that the Huo family gave her.
Sometimes, she would go with Ji Shu to find Mu Qing and the others. It was as if she couldn’t control herself. However, she was no longer the Xing Jiu ‘an she used to be.
She became more and more irascible and easily angered. She said annoying words and did annoying things. Even she hated herself to the core. However, senior brother was still very good to her and was still full of expectations, as if he only thought that she was throwing a tantrum like a child.
Xing Jiu ‘an felt very tired.
At night, she lay on the bed alone. Boundless loneliness engulfed her. It was as if she had returned to the time when she had been abandoned. She wanted someone to save her, but she didn’t know if he would be able to.
Suddenly, Xing Jiu ‘an had a headache. He hugged his head and curled up into a ball.
She didn’t know why her head hurt, but it hurt so much that she wanted to hug herself tightly or pass out.
She had been dancing and practicing martial arts since she was a child, so her body was very soft. She was curled up into a small ball like a cat.
Finally, when the pain stopped, Xing Jiu ‘an looked like he had just been fished out of the water. His face was frighteningly pale.
She put her hand down and lay on her side, feeling like crying.
However, she could not shed any tears.
She suddenly hated herself for being like this.
Walking into the living room, she took out a fruit knife and stabbed it into her thigh.
The pain seemed to wake her up a little.
After a while, she dressed her own wound and dragged her exhausted body back to sleep.
She had fallen asleep.
When he woke up the next day, Xing Jiu ‘an was still at a loss.
She felt pain in her leg. She looked down and saw that the wound had opened.
She went to get the medicine and gauze, and slowly applied the medicine on herself.
She would get injured during missions too, so she was used to bandaging her own wounds.
It wasn’t that serious anyway.
When her injuries were almost healed, she went out again.
She was too close to Ji Shu, and some people even thought that she liked Ji Shu.
In fact, she probably liked it a little.
She liked Ji Shu’s freedom.
That was something that she could not obtain right now. She also liked the way Ji Shu was happy every day.
She used to be like Ji Shu, but now she wasn ‘t.
She had now become an uncontrollable lunatic and could only bring misfortune to people.
Every time he met his senior brother, he would be very unhappy.
The other senior brothers and sisters were the same.
She was really not the Xing Jiu ‘an of the past.
Even she hated her current self, so how could she ask others to continue to like her?
After a while, Xing Jiu ‘an realized that his condition was getting worse.
She also began to slowly forget what had happened before.
He had forgotten how she felt from the moment the Huo family found her.
The more she thought about it, the more she realized that she had started to go back with the Huo family because she really wanted to have her own family.
He had opposed Huo Chulan because he did not want the Huo family to focus all their attention on Huo Chulan.
The more she thought about it, the more she felt that she loved her family!
It was strange and outrageous!
However, she didn’t think so in her heart. She even felt that this was the case and seemed to be certain that this was the truth.
Xing Jiu ‘an also became more and more paranoid.
When she quarreled with Mu Qing again, she no longer had any other thoughts in her heart, and she looked more and more gloomy.
However, when they returned and recovered, they would feel very painful.
She clearly didn’t want this to happen!
She didn’t want to cause a scene!
He didn’t want to become someone that everyone hated!
However, she could not control herself.
She could only hurt herself.
There were a few scars on his body, and the scars from the previous mission remained on his body, making him extremely ugly.
She hated these scars.
But sometimes, only pain could keep her awake for a moment.
When she was awake, she would use it to remember some things and write some things so that she wouldn’t let herself become worse and worse!
He would often lie on the sofa and slowly flip through the pages.
Later, when something happened to her, there were a lot of exposé about the real and fake heiresses on the internet, but she didn’t care.
There was nothing to be concerned about!
But his senior brothers and sisters cared.
They would give her a call.
She didn’t want to pick up the phone, afraid that it would cause more trouble.
But they still wanted to help her.
Until she met Huo Chulan again. Huo Chulan smiled at her.
She suddenly thought of something. Could everything that had happened to her ... Be related to Huo Chulan?
Huo Chulan said that she would not be able to remove it from the hot search.
She remembered that her senior brothers and sisters were coming to help her. She was worried that it was really because of Huo Chulan. She was even more worried that Huo Chulan would do something to her senior brothers and sisters. So, she went back.