BXBX NOVEL Chapter 145 - Boys' Secret (2)
Chapter 145 – Boys’ Secret (2)
[Mild sexual content.]
__Phone Call__
It took me more than ten minutes of calming myself down before I returned to the call and asked Noah, "Okay then, now that I'm ready to listen. Do explain. What the fuck is this?"
I mean, I really thought that my deduction was correct. I thought Noah became the love slave for Thomas because Noah had a gay crush on him, so he helped Thomas in any way he could.
If it was a one-way relationship, I could understand why Thomas just bullied the heck out of Noah because of his sexual orientation.
But turned out it was two-way?! Mutual?! As friends with benefit?!
What. The. Fuck?!
"S—So, Thomas and I had always been good friends since we were young. We were basically childhood friends even before Thomas knew Jorge and Jackson."
"Our parents knew each other very well, and we were good friends until I discovered my sexuality when I was in middle school."
"I realized that I never bat an eye on girls, but my heart races whenever I saw men on T.V. or even my guy friends in P.E. class."
"I thought I was wrong, a mistake, and I still think I am even up until now. But I've come to make peace within myself and accept that I am gay."
Honestly, I didn't see him as a mistake just because of his sexual orientation. People were different, and you couldn't force someone to be similar to fit certain criteria.
Because I was also a social outcast, I didn't fit in what they wanted, probably because of my poverty, appearance, or simply because they didn't like me.
I let Noah continue with his story because he seemed to be expressing what was truly inside his heart right now.
"I started developing a crush for Thomas, my childhood and best friend when I was in middle school. You know, typical teenage crush. But I didn't dare to confess because I always thought that he was straight, so I had no chance, and I didn't want to force myself either."
"But he found out about my sexuality when he visited my home and played games in my room. I was out, so I didn't know he had come in. Since our parents were close, they just allowed Thomas to enter my room without me."
"So, at that time, when I was in my last year of middle school, he played games on my computer and checked my browsing history. He found that history of me watching uhm… uh… you know, watching gay porn."
"And he confronted you about it?" I asked out of curiosity. "Did he ridicule you after that?"
"He did. He called me a faggot, and told me that he was disgusted with me. At that time, I really thought that my world had been shattered. There was no way for me to hide this anymore," Noah said. "But there was a plot twist that I didn't even know could happen."
"That… he wants to… uh… screw you?"
"Not exactly. At least not in the beginning," Noah said. "He sat on the chair and told me to kneel, then he… uh… unzipped his pants and told me to suck him because he is always wondered how does it feel to get sucked by a man."
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I had officially lost my shit here. I didn't know how things could get worse from here.
This was so scandalous that I was left speechless.
"So I uh… give him a blowjob, my first time. He was satisfied, and then we started becoming friends with benefit. He told me that he will not tell anyone about my sexuality as long as I give him service."
"I was actually relieved back then because I also liked him, so I thought I could crawl inside his heart and date him in the future. And he also promised to keep our secret."
"Our physical relationship developed from just hand job and blowjob into something even crazier. We started kissing and exploring anything, including uhm… you know… real sex."
"Meanwhile, my relationship with Mona was just me trying to discover my own sexuality. Maybe I was bisexual instead of gay. But the more I had a physical relationship with Thomas, the more I realized that I just couldn't do it with a woman. In fact, I never kissed her either. So I broke up with her and befriended her instead."
"It happened about two months ago, we did the thing, and I sneakily recorded our whole fun together without his consent. I did it for my personal use, of course."
Noah made it seem like the whole thing was just two boys fooling around, exploring their sexuality. But I knew something wrong created this whole scenario we were in right now.
"Then, what did go wrong?"
"It's… it's my fault. I got tired and anxious, trying to cover him from all his crazy dangerous stunts and bullying. I was also scared that one day they might get caught and roped me in."
"So I told Thomas that I refused to help him and his gang any further."
"He then tried to threaten me by saying that he would tell everyone about my sexuality if I refused to join them anymore, and he said he had my photo giving him a blowjob. But I'm not completely defenseless, I also told him that I have a video of our first time going full bare together, so if he wanted to shame me, I'd shame him even more."
Ah, now the dots had been connected after his testimony. I could see what happened next, "So out of fear, he cut his friends with benefits relationship with you and then bullied you horribly to threaten you, right?"
"Yes, he did that. He is afraid I will tell everyone about our um… sex tape. So he bullied the hell out of me, making sure that I had no guts to tell anyone about it."
"Emmy, this is why I don't want to tell you about it when we first met. Because I'm not completely innocent here. I helped them to do all those stupid crazy stunts, and I also helped them to cover up in case they might get caught."
"My relationship with Thomas wasn't forced as well. I liked him and willingly did those things with him. We were exploring together until we fought."
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"I'm sorry for hiding this from you, Em…." Noah said. "I will hang up now. If you don't want to meet me anymore after this, just text me or say it now. I will pretend we never met…."
"Wait," I stopped him from hanging up. "Do you really think that I will cut our relationship because of this?"
"W—Well, yes, I'm not really the good, bullied person you ever think of, Emmy. I know you want to help me, and I really appreciate that. But… since you already know the truth, I guess it's invalid now."
"I never said that. I just want your honesty, and you gave it to me. I have no reason to ditch you," I said, trying to make Noah feel less guilty.
Honestly, I had no intention of shaming him. I just wanted the truth. And now, since I got it already, it wasn't my place to judge him.
I saw what Noah did was just a teenage boy in love and exploring his sexuality. They did it with consent, though it didn't end well in the end.
And with him finally telling everything to me, I got my clarity and quickly found a way to utilize this for my plan with Elise tomorrow.
However, since Noah willingly came clean to me with his experience, I didn't want to lie to him.
Honesty should be paid with honesty.
"Noah, hear me out, I've met with Elise this evening, and we created a plan to take those bastards down, ending their terror in the school once and for all," I said.
"Huh? You already created a plan with Elise? That's… fast."
"Indeed, and I want you to be a part of it. Don't you want Thomas and his friends to stop bullying you?"
"I do. But… is it really okay for me to help? I kind of feel undeserving after lying to you about what happened," Noah asked meekly. I could sense that he was actually worried for no reason.
"Noah, I said just now that I want your honesty. About you having sex with Thomas and helping him, that wasn't in my place to judge because you told me that you want to stop and cut the relationship altogether."
"Y—Yeah, I don't want to be in the same shoes with those people. Even though I never participate with their bullying or dangerous stunts, the fact that I helped them…."
"Yeah, I understand, But that's not my place to judge.. But I do get a great idea to take them down, thanks to your story."