BXBX NOVEL Chapter 156 - YOU HAVE MANY ADMIRERS TO TURN UPTO...
" I did a few things to hurt you even though I did not intend it to...can we let go of this and start over?? "
Tinsley started. Kian closed his eyes, disapproving of it. He was...he could not just let go of it this easily.
"I m ready to leave working and ready to be the mother of your child...please?"
.Tinsley bargained. It only made Kian more disgusted with herself. He was starting to look at her in a different light.
He pulled away from her touch and it made Tinsley feel rejected and dejected. He shook his head in a straight no.
"I can't...!"
"Why can't you??"
Tinsley questioned. She did not understand why he could not let go of this??
She knew that she did a mistake but it did not mean that it would have to be over.
She was ready to repent and pay the price of her mistakes. She was going to take all his punishments silently.
"I can't live with a lier!"
What he said was simple. Simple words, no complex words used yet it took her more than seconds, to think, process and analyze what he just uttered out.
And when it drown upon her, it was just too late. He did not trust her anymore not to commit the same mistakes again.
Her words hold no meaning to him. They were empty words for him...just void and clear white meaningless phrases.
She had lost his trust. The very trust that holds a relationship and breaks it when it was not there.
It was at that moment, she did not understand what he just meant. Not trusting it calling it to quit??
"I...swear to God! I mean what I said!!"
She came to him, being desperate. She could not let this one mistake from her side to break something they have so beautiful together.
"I m sorry!!! Please!!"
Tears once again made their way to her eyes and onto her sticky cheeks from crying just a few minutes ago.
It made her more afraid when he did not say anything and remained adamant, looking at her with eyes, she could not tell if what he was feeling inside.
Pity, upset, anger, furry??
What was he looking at her with??
She was ready for him to shower his anger, rage, fury...all his emotions upon her...hell!! She was under his literal mercy!
She held his hands tightly onto hers and then requested him again. He did not react right away. It was as if he was having a hard battle of thoughts in his mind.
But then he pulled himself away from her hold and walked away from her side. Tears dropped onto her empty hand...the one she was holding him with.
Kian had second thoughts...he had but he needed to stick to his decision or things would repeat and he would trap himself in this endless cycle of being powerless, not in control.
And he hated being not in power, control. He had been feeling so vulnerable and anxious ever since she came onto his life.
He is not once felt secured about her. Three months of marriage and he could not tell if she really loved him?
Because of all her actions even though it made him find comfort yet it could not make him believe completely in her words.
And then going against him...it made him question if she was really the right woman for him??
There was a time, he thought to suck it up and go on but then now he had come to a point where he could not.
For his sanity...to get his life back on track...he had to let go of her. It was time to let go of her before she webs him around with her distractions.
She was a beautiful distraction and it would be hard to start living without one but he needed to let go of her.
"You need to go..."
He started and Tinsley peeked at him astonished at what he was asking of her.
"What??"
"You need to leave, Tinsley...I can't...I can't anymore with you.."
"What do you mean??? What do you can't with....can't with me??"
Tinsley inquired, with him, not being able to grasp his words. She fixed his eyes onto his and did not part away to listen to him completely.
"I want you to leave me...it had been too much for me to hold onto...I m not into drama...I m a simple man, Tinsley...complicating but simple...and I can't be dealing with this and concentrate on my work..."
His words...all his pierced her heart multiple times that it was bleeding from every point at the time.
"You...you are a beautiful distraction...that's it!"
He completed and then the actualization that all this time, she had been nothing to him more than just a distraction had broken a little of her.
Yet she ran up to him and engulfed him in a hug taken him back by shock. She held onto his body, rubbing her face over his chest.
"Please!!! Please!!! Do not ask me to leave...please!!! Kian!!!"
He closed his eyes in discontent. He did not wrap his hands around her either. She only tightened her hands around his waist.
"Where will I go, Kian??? Where will I go??"
She questioned him. He did not respond and she waited for him to say something...anything if not everything.
"Who do I have to turn up to if you not you??? Please!!!"
She sounded pathetic, helpless but she did not care. She was going to beg to him to rent a place close to him if not his heart.
It was all she was asking yet he seemed adamant on his decision and as the seconds were passing by, she knew that she had screwed up real bad this time.
"You have many admirers, Tinsley Rutherford! You will have places to turn up to."
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