Chapter 125 - I LIKE YOU BUT I LOVE HER...
She pulled onto his hair as he deepened the kiss, thrusting his tongue inside of her mouth and Madi allowed it...she allowed all of it.
Her body was on fire as his hands roamed all over her back and below. He gave a firm squeeze to her butts on jeans.
Madi moaned at the contact and grinded against his hardness under his pants. His movements with her got urgently hasty.
On struggling to breathe, John pulled off and showered kisses all over her jaw and the length of her neck, moving down to the exposed skin of her cleavage.
"Oh fuck!"
She moaned out when he pressed his hands hard on her breasts hardly. She pulled his body closer to hers.
John kept leaving bite marks all over her naked skin, getting restless, wanting more and more, not wanting to stop at all.
He leaned more towards her and the cabinet hit Madi's back hard and she hissed with pain.
"Owww!!"
"Shit!! What happened??"
He asked, looking up at her, rubbing her back. Madi breathed in and shook her head.
Awkward silence enveloped the atmosphere once they realized what they were doing.
Both parted their eyes off each other and Madi got up, moving back to her seat.
Both wanted to speak up but they were no words left inside them to address each other.
"I know that..."
"This should not have happened!"
Madi overlapped over whatever John was about to say. He shut his mouth the moment she spoke those words out.
He did not regret one bit of what just had happened. In fact, he had been wanting to kiss her since last but after everything got ruined, it was impossible.
The kiss was filled with passion, dark desires, longing and raw lust. All he wanted was to pull her back on his lap and kiss the fuck out of her.
Her chest heaving up and down in a disturbing rhythm that it irked his hands from wanting so much to touch her pulp breasts or feel the full shape of her butt.
Madison closed her eyes when the intensity of the situation started falling over her head.
What had she done??
She was here to talk to him. Tell him how she still was in love with his sister...Lana and wanted his help to get back on her.
But then she ended up giving in to her secret desires for him. She did not lament one bit over the kiss. Hell, all she wanted was his lips everywhere on her skin more than anything else at that moment.
"Yeah...yes..."
"I love Lana."
She mumbled to herself and John heard her. He did not know why suddenly he felt jealous of his sister.
"I want to get back with her. "
Madi started, looking back at him. Their eyes interlocked as he silently listened to whatever she had to say.
"But I can't get ahold of her. I want to do right by her side this time...so will you help me??"
Madi very expectantly asked him. He never thought of all the things, this was what she would ask from him.
He thought that maybe she was here to discuss back the deal or talk him back into it and surely, he would not have a mind it at all.
He wanted to deny...deny helping her and keep her all for himself. But then how could he stop and get in between two people who loved each other dearly??
He knew, he saw how his sister was still not over her and so could he see the same longing in Madi's eyes too.
He looked away, to the outside. But then why did he feel the kiss...the moment they had just shared was full of desires from her side too??
What about that?? He wanted to ask, interview her about it and get answers before all of it.
"I cannot make any promises."
It was what he said after a long pause but still, it made Madi's heart warm and fuzzy.
She could see hope and it made her so happy. She gave him the sweetest smile as a heartful thank you.
"Why??"
It was a sudden question that made her turn back to look back at him. He bored his eyes deep into hers and repeated his question.
"Why?? Then why kiss me like that as if you have been wanting it all along...why??"
She opened her mouth to say but then closed it again, not knowing what to say or what to not say.
His scrutinizing gaze over her face made her nervous and self-conscious. She bowed her head down, wanting to look at anything else but him.
"Why kiss me like you wanted me, Madison??"
"Lie to my face, look up into my eyes and say you felt nothing in your heart...say it and I will take you to my sister."
His questions made her uncomfortable. He kept his eyes constantly upon her, observing how his straightforward questions made her so uneasy.
"Common, say it...say you felt nothing."
He demanded, pulling her by her arm making her to look at him. She peeked at him uneasily.
She bit on her lips, closing her eyes to shut his face off from inside of her mind. Damn!!! She cursed inside herself.
"Tell me don't feel anything for me...spit it out!!"
"I like you...fucking goddamnit!! Can't you see??"
Madi snapped back at him, angrily. Blood rising up to her ears and face as the truth was out in the air.
"I so fucking like you...All I want is to kiss you nonstop and never stop."
Her honest confession made John want to scream out to the world happily for knowing that he was not in some unrequited love interest.
His feeling was returned. She felt for him...felt the same as he felt about her. And the information made him ecstatic.
Madi got up and again sat back on his lap. He wrapped his arms around her narrow waist, liking the feel of her body back to his.
"I like you, John Kravinshky."
She mouthed, rising her forefinger up and started tracing his eyes, his nose, ears and rubbed her thumbs over his parted lips.
"And I want to kiss you so bad that it hurts...if only if my heart did not belong to someone else...you would have been the one..."
John remained silent, staring into her, as she continued to spill words after words from her delectable lips.
Madi leaned closer and rested her forehead onto his, both inhaled and exhaled the same air, closing their eyes, finding peace at this moment.
"...but I love Lana...it will always be her."
And those nine words completely broke all the composure and peace, he had felt just a while ago in no time.
He snapped open his eyes to see her. She was peering right inside of him as she spoke out the final words.
"I love Lana Delta Kravinshky and want to be with her."
It was at that exact moment, he had realized that nothing mattered anymore.
There was nothing left to talk or negotiate. Fight for or scream out to, not when her heart already belonged to someone else.
"FUCK!!"
John cried out, angrily, upset, hitting his fist over the car window and it astonished Madison who was sitting right next to him on the driver's seat.
He had been quiet all these times, looking at her and then all of a sudden cursed out, shocking her.
"Are you ok??"
She intervened, touching his bicep softly, afraid of his outburst. And it was at that moment, John realized that he had been having hallucinations.
He closed his eyes in defeat. All that he just heard, felt, her confessions, were...everything inside his head.
He never dared to ask her and he would never know if it were true...what she confessed to him in his head were true??
If she really felt it...something if not anything?? A deep mystery...
It felt so real...everything felt so real. It was a second ago, she was sitting on his lap, speaking how much she wanted him, liked him...wanted to kiss him...if not only not for his sister.
No wonder, why he was jealous of his own sister. He had liked Madison Maria for so long that his feelings for her had grown inside of him without a stop on it.
But now it was of no use. He could not fight for the love...his love when she did not even feel the hint of it so it was a battle that never happened.
All he could do was let her go and unite her with his sister. It would hurt him but he had to let go...that was all he could do.
"I and Delta are off to Hawai tonight...you can join us."
He offered her and it bought a bright smile to Madi's face, the one that made him want to rethink about his decision.
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