BXBX NOVEL Chapter 318 - The Grief of Love
Chapter 318 The Grief of Love
Xia Ning looks at Lei Buyang’s helpless expression. Suddenly, she feels that she has created the embarrassment by herself.
She knows the sad history of Lei Buyang’s romance. However, she believes he is expected to suffer from his doings. He always keeps going after girls blindly. He should understand that people having too many romances always ends up in regret.
Lei Buyang notices Xia Ning’s reaction. He bursts into laughter, “Girl, I am kidding. Ah...”
Lei Buyang suddenly cries and frowns. The wound hurts.
“I will call the doctor.” Xia Ning stands up and wants to press the button.
Lei Buyang reaches to stop her, “No need...I can withstand it. Ning, can you promise me one thing?”
“Yeah. What is it?”
“Can you sit down and chat with me for a while?”
Xia Ning is worried. There is no problem for her to do so. However, Lei Buyang has just woken and is seriously injured. So she answers, “You may have a rest first. After you get better...”
“Ning, just for one time.” Lei Buyang says sincerely.
Xia Ning feels her heart softened. Lei Buyang is a very successful man, but he is sincerely begging her to talk with him. For an instant, she feels sorry for this man.
“OK.” Xia Ning sits down, “I can stay to chat with you. But you have to pay attention to your wound.”
Lei Buyang nods. He gives a sigh of relief, “Ning, I loved someone. Deeply!”
Xia Ning blinks her eyes and listens in patience.
“I am an orphan. All the people around me didn’t treat me as a man. I was bullied everywhere. She was an exception to me. She didn’t mind my inferiority. She sincerely made friends with me and was very kind to me.” Lei Buyang’s eyes blur. He feels warm and sweet in his heart. He continues, “I met her by accident. She was as beautiful and kind as a goddess. She was simply perfect without any flaws. At that time, I couldn’t but look at her from far away. I swore I would work very hard to protect her all her life.”
“So, in the next ten years, because of this purpose, because of the lovely girl, I worked really hard. Luckily, during the time, I was not repulsed by her. Instead, she gave me some opportunities to get closer to her, though I was so...humble.”
Lei Buyang stops here. His bright eyes are covered with mist.
Xia Ning feels her heart tightened. Unconsciously, she feels something bad.
Lei Buyang doesn’t speak for quite a while. Xia Ning asks, “Then, what happened later?”
“Then, I succeeded. I gathered all my courage to ask her to be my girlfriend. She agreed.” Lei Buyang slightly lifts his lips, “At the moment she said yes, I felt I was the happiest man in the world. It was a blessing of ten lifetimes for me to be able to stay with her.”
Xia Ning looks at the joy in Lei Buyang’s eyes. She can imagine how Lei Buyang felt at that time. Even now, he fails to control his excitement.
It is really surprising that Lei Buyang could love someone so sincerely.
“The days I spent with her was the sweetest and happiest time all my life. One day, I finally proposed to her.”
Lei Buyang turns to Xia Ning, “Actually, I was always thinking of proposing to her. I hesitated because I was lack of confidence. I was afraid that I was not good enough and she wouldn’t agree. I felt very nervous and had a careful consideration before I made the proposal.”
Xia Ning smiles, “Did she agree?”
Lei Buyang nods, “Yes. So, I was too excited to fall asleep for three days and nights. During the days, I paid all my attention to get prepared for the wedding. I made plans for the future of us and how to spend the rest of our life. I listed some three-year plans, five-year plans and ten-year plans. I even made plans for our last days of life. I only wanted to give her all the best in the world. I was clear that I was not good enough. She agreed to marry me. Actually, she was worth someone better. I knew.”
Xia Ning cocks her head. She is curious about who the woman is. She is also curious about what kind of woman can make Lei Buyang so crazy about her.
However, she understands. When faced with the person one loves most, he will think that even all the best things in the world together don’t seem to be enough.
It is just like that of Yi Yunrui. She owes him too much. She feels blessed to be able to marry such an excellent man.
“However, three days before the wedding date, she broke her promise.” Lei Buyang closes his eyes and unconsciously clenches his hands.
Xia Ning feels surprisingly shocked. It happened many years ago, but Lei Buyang still feels such grief till now. It is imaginable what a terrible shock it was to him at that time.
“Why did she...break the promise?” Xia Ning asks in a gentle voice.
Lei Buyang opens his eyes. His eyes gleam sharply. But he calms down soon, “She said that she fell in love with someone else.”
Fell in love with someone else...
Xia Ning feels shocked. Lei Buyang loved the woman for over ten years and worked hard for her all the years. However, she tells the truth three days before the wedding. It was too cruel and unacceptable.
No one can accept it easily.
“Ning, I didn’t mind she had someone else in her heart. I really didn’t mind. If she had stayed with me, I would have tried even harder to get her approval. I would do whatever I could to wipe that man from her heart!” Lei Buyang’s eyes gleam decisively, “I knew whom she fell in love with. I also knew that man would not marry her. I also clearly understood why she told me about that. She didn’t want to lie to me. She preferred to bear that alone rather than accepting my love.”
Lei Buyang takes a deep breath. He looks painful, “She was really a fool. I really didn’t mind, as long as she would stay with me.”
Xia Ning can feel the pain in Lei Buyang’s heart, which seems to make him suffocated. Xia Ning asks, “Did that man like her?”
Lei Buyang darkens his eyes, “I didn’t know. As to that man, she hardly mentioned anything. I only knew that man left her, while she kept waiting for him. She waited for the love she had never got all the time!”
“Is she still waiting now?”
Lei Buyang turns to Xia Ning. After quite a while, he responds word by word, “She died in my embrace.”
Xia Ning feels her heart ache to hear the words!
Did she die in Lei Buyang’s embrace? What does that mean?
Lei Buyang is aware of Xia Ning’s shock and confusion. He sneers at himself and says, “Silly girl, don’t think too much. It is nothing like what you think. However, it ended and she died. Every year, on the day of her death, I go to visit her tomb and bring her favorite olive branches to her. I stay with her for a whole day and night. Ah. It might be good for her to be dead so that she didn’t need to struggle for love and suffer heartbroken pain. Maybe, as to her, that was the best ending. Possibly, she is in heaven now smiling to scold me to be a stupid pig.”
Xia Ning smiles. Who doesn’t want to hold love tightly? Who doesn’t want to spend his life with the loved one? However, when it comes to the end, one may not but comfort himself like this.
“Thank you for sharing with me the most important thing in your heart.”
“You silly girl, I need to thank you for listening to me for such a long time. Ah. It is really a sad story. I am afraid that if I want to find someone like her...” Lei Buyang pauses and turns to look at Xia Ning. He shakes his head, “I have found one. But she is married. As the saying goes, good men and good women are both married. I am afraid that I may spend my life just like it is now.”
Xia Ning didn’t know that Lei Buyang was so sincere in love in the past. She didn’t know he had such a history. Now, she realizes that Lei Buyang’s reckless and careless attitude has its cause. If it were her, she would not be able to walk out of the past easily.
Lei Buyang can be considered quite positive in his attitude.
“President Lei, I believe your one must be waiting for you in somewhere of the world. Love is destined. You will surely be happy in the future.
When hearing the word Happy, Lei Buyang darkens his eyes at once. Then, he smiles, “I hope so. However, I am afraid that my future wife is not born yet. It may take me a long time to wait for her.”
Xia Ning can’t help laughing.
“Ning, I know your commander husband doesn’t like me. I also understand why. Anyway, can you call me Buyang, or Bubu, or Yangyang? Don’t call me President Lei. That sounds really like a stranger.”
Xia Ning twitches her eyebrows, “Fine. I may call you Lei Buyang directly. OK?”
“...” Lei Buyang is speechless. He gives a sigh, “Compared with President Lei, it sounds nicer. You are Ning. You may call me whatever you like.”
They chat for another while. Lei Buyang is hurt quite seriously. He himself feels a little tired. Xia Ning leaves.
She is surprised to see Yi Yuntian leaning on the balcony and quietly looking outside.
Xia Ning has not spoken when Yi Yuntian turns to her, “Ning.”
Xia Ning feels a little embarrassed, “Brother, I just went to see Lei Buyang. He was seriously injured because of protecting me.”
“Yeah. I know. You don’t need to explain to me. Rui chose you. I trust you.”
Xia Ning feels confused. If he trusts her, why does he stand in front of Lei Buyang’s ward?”
Yi Yuntian is aware of Xia Ning’s confusion. He says, “I have just come out from Weiwei’s ward. I am thinking about whether I should go to see that tiger Lei.”
Xia Ning twitches her lips, “Lei Buyang felt tired. He just lay down for a rest.”
“Oh. It provides me with a good excuse for not going inside.” Yi Yuntian walks to her, “Ning, may I get someone to send you back to C City?”
Xia Ning thinks for a while. She suddenly has an idea. She brightens her eyes, “Brother, can I ask you for a favor?”
Yi Yuntian thinks for a while. He looks at Xia Ning meaningfully, “Do you want me to take you to Beijing?”
Xia Ning feels surprised. She forcefully nods, “Yes. I want to meet Rui. Brother, I know I ask for too much. It is reckless. However, I really want to meet him.”