BXBX NOVEL Chapter 148 - Its My Fault
Chapter 148 - It's My Fault
Frustrated by her words and how selfish she was being, Elias pulled away from her. Will no amount of begging and reason go through to her? Will no amount of convincing change her mind?!
How could she remain so stubborn when it concerned her life? How could she pretend that she won't die at the end of these nine months?
"You will die!" Elias shouted at her, all of his pent-up anger coming to the surface. He was well-aware that he was going through the seven stages of grief at this point, but he knew within himself that he'd never reach the acceptance part.
"This child will eat you from the inside out. It will consume your blood, your flesh, and your w.o.m.b until there is nothing left of you. Once you're dead from pushing him out, it will crawl out of you like a monster!" Elias grabbed her shoulders and shook her, hoping she'd understand.
"It is not a baby inside of you, but a bloodthirsty monster that will not hesitate to kill its own mother! Do you think I'd take care of that thing if it kills you? No, I'll snap his neck and murder him for doing such a thing to you, Adeline. How can you not get it through your thick skull!" he roared, his voice shaking the walls.
Elias had seen grown men drop to their knees at the sight of his fury. The shattered windows cracked even further, glass littering the floor, the winds rushing into the room, ruining this place even more. Shadows surged onto all four corners of the bed, ready to kill.
"You don't know that," Adeline calmly said, in the face of his anger. She didn't even flinch from his temperament. "There has been an incident of a human and a pure-blood conceiving a child—"
"That is in the past, and there are no records of that abomination!" Elias growled. He knew who she was referring to. It was the founders of Wraith.
Adeline wore the same ring as that very human. No one knew what happened to the human Queen, or the child.
"But you should know," Elisa hissed. "So many human women that give birth to vampires often die within the hour. Where do you think the blood loss comes from? Complications at birth? Of course not. It's the vampire child s.u.c.k.i.n.g its own mother dry before clawing out of her!"
Elisa gritted his teeth. He was protecting her. Why couldn't she understand that?
"You're young, Adeline. We have so many years ahead of us, so many years to share before we settle down for a child. Is it so wrong to request another two decades with you, is it so wrong to not want an heir?"
Adeline's eyes watered even further. She was never a crybaby, but was suddenly emotional. His eyes were dark and cruel, his mouth spewing poison into her ears. He didn't even view their child as a vampire. He called their baby a monster, an "it." And now, he wasn't giving her a choice.
"When we consummated our marriage, didn't you say you'd plant an heir inside of me? How can you be like this now that I finally gave you what you wanted?" Adeline whispered.
Adeline leaned forward, hoping he'd find reason within himself. "There are so many human women who survive the birth, with no complications. They grace our streets, with their vampire child, laughing and running. There are so many half-bloods."
"Adeline—"
"Please give me this one thing, Elias." Adeline grabbed his shirt, pulling him close.
Adeline didn't think she'd have to beg him to have a child. How wrong of him to do such a thing to her. Was it wrong to want to protect a life?
"Please tell me the 'yes' you swore I can squeeze from your lips. Please do not treat me like this, treat our child like this. Please don't hurt what I hold so dear," Adeline whimpered.
"I love our offspring already," Adeline sobbed out as she hugged him tightly.
"Elias, I love our child before meeting them, before feeling their kicks, before hearing their heartbeat as much as I loved you—despite how heartless you were. I loved you before hearing your confession, before understanding your nature, before your heartbeat. Can't you do the same?"
Elias loudly sighed. He could never win against her, could he? He could never look into those large, trembling eyes of hers and tell her 'no.' Not even when it could cost her life. He squeezed his eyes shut and pushed her away.
"I will not reason with you," Elias coldly said. "Especially when you are not in the right state of mind. I know it's the child influencing you to say these things. Its powers have already developed enough to warp your perspective."
"Elias—"
"I will send your food in. you must eat every last drop of it, or so help me god, I'll force it down your mouth."
"Elias—"
"Goodbye." Elias pushed her off of him and got out of the bed. He went for the door, opening it, but didn't hear the pitter patter of her wild footsteps. She chased after him, tightly wrapping her arms around his body.
"Adeline!" Elias yelled, spinning around to push her off of him. If she didn't want the painless way out, his hands were tied. He'd just have to use force.
"Don't do this to me, Elias. Don't hurt me beyond repair, don't ruin me like this!" Adeline shouted at him, looking up at him, only to see the face of a stranger.
"Please, don't do this to me," she begged.
Adeline heaved a shaky breath and nearly fainted on the spot. Her knees gave out, her head dizzy from running with no food in her stomach. But Elias did not catch her. Instead, he remained standing, watching as she lowered onto her knees.
"Can't you see what this baby is doing to you?" Elias harshly asked. "Don't you realize it's already hurting you?!"
Adeline shook her head. She gazed up at him, angry tears flowing out of her eyes. Her c.h.e.s.t was aching so badly, it felt like a thousand needles pricked her.
Adeline whispered, "Our baby will never hurt me as much as you've done to me today. You trampled on my feelings, stomped on my heart, and ruined my love for you."
Elias lowered himself onto his knees. He roughly grabbed her chin, yanking her forward. "Trust me darling, the pain of refusal I give to you today will be a small drop in the ocean in comparison to the horrors you'll experience within these nine months."
Adeline glowered at him. She shoved his hand away, but he gripped her chin tighter.
"You WILL eat the food, is that clear?" Elias softly demanded.
"Why?" Adeline responded. "So you can slowly feed me abortion medicine!"
"God damn it, Adeline!" Elias screamed, fl.i.c.k.i.n.g his hand away. "Do you have to be so stubborn?!"
"Do you have to be so selfish?!" Adeline shouted back. "You make it seem like it's? my fault for being pregnant, my fault for falling in love with you, my fault for m.a.k.i.n.g. .l.o.v.e to you!"
Elias's stone heart softened just slightly. "Darling, you know I don't mean it like that," he said.
"No, you do," Adeline argued, pushing him away from her. "It takes two to make a child. Do not forget the rounds we go in the bedroom, do not forget it is you who entered me, don't you dare forget it is you who swore I'd have an heir inside of me!"
Elias was haunted by his own words. He had said it without realizing how terrifying a vampire pregnancy would be on a human.
Elias had said it for he loved her so much, he wanted a piece of her running around the castle. But seeing as the damn baby gave Adeline a two week coma, he could no longer bear the thought of her pregnant.
Elias could no longer envision a tiny version of her dashing in the hallways, running after his long legs.
"I'm sorry," Elias muttered. It was the last thing he said before rising to his feet. He couldn't even look back at her before opening the doors and slamming it shut.
Adeline closed her eyes and quietly wept to herself. She hugged her stomach tightly, and let out an irritated scream. The sound was foreign to her ears, strangled and desperate.
"I'm so sorry," she whispered to her child. "I'm so… so sorry."