BXBX NOVEL Chapter 2 GOING BACK TO CHINA PART 2
She looked at the foggy mirror where she couldn’t see herself. ’I need to work harder. A little more, then I will get what I want.’ She clenched her fists tightly.
After she was done with her shower, she put the small towel around her head and put on a bathrobe. She felt like she was in a five-star hotel. ’Money is the best.’ She thought.
She walked out of the bathroom and sat down on the bed. She laid down on her back and looked at the ceiling. She was about to close her eyes when her cell phone chimed. It was a text.
Xue Lin took her cell phone that was beside her pillow and checked the text.
’Father is sick. Come home.’
Xue Lin let out a smirk and threw the mobile on the soft bed. ’Now they remember that they have a daughter.’ Her eyes flickered.
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Xue Lin packed her back and was ready to go. She checked herself once again before getting out of the room. She met Qi Ying in the corridor.
"Are you really leaving now?" Qi Ying was a little bit sad. Having a considerate friend when dealing with a hot-tempered friend was really needed.
"As you can see, yes. If something happens, call for Xiao Lan. I think she can handle her better." Xue Lin grabbed Qi Ying’s right shoulder lightly and continued, "Don’t keep everything inside you. Vending your emotion once in a while is good for both your body and mind."
Qi Ying smiled and nodded. "Yes, I will. Thank you, Xiao Lin."
"Nah, don’t mention it." Xue Lin fanned with her hand and walked away. Her face became slightly warm.
Qi Ying said, "Let the butler take your luggage." Then, a butler came and took her luggage. Two friends went downstairs silently.
At the entrance, a car was parked for Xue Lin. She went inside the car and the chauffeur politely closed the door of the car.
Qi Ying said, "Have a safe trip." She waved her hand.
Xue Lin waved her hand as well and the car drove away. On the way, she thought, ’This is a beautiful country. I’m going to miss it.’
Her mischievous mind woke and asked her grumpy mind, "Are you sure you are going to miss the city? Or are you saying that you are going to miss your friends."
Her grumpy mind snorted and said, "None of your business."
Her mischievous mind protested, "That cannot be true. I am you and you are me. Or course, once it’s your business, it’s also my business. Now tell me, tell me." It nudged the other one.
Her grumpy mind darted the question. "It doesn’t matter anyway."
Xue Lin frowned and scolded her two minds in her mind, "Shut up you two." She couldn’t be loud or the driver might get scared and make an accident.
Apparently, she had two minds. One was mischievous and optimistic. It had all sorts of positive side. Another one was grumpy and pessimistic. It had all sorts of negative side. She knew that she had two types of mind. But she couldn’t remember how long she knew that. But found out about her bipolar personality disorder just recently. She was surprised at first by her own discovery and then soon calmed down. She realized that it was natural as her mood always went up and down and she took action naturally based on her mood.
She had already studied about it once she enrolled in the university in Paris. Bipolar disorder is a type of mood disorder, which is a category of illnesses that can cause severe mood changes. The elevated mood is significant and is known as mania, or hypomania if less severe and symptoms of psychosis are absent.
As for the symptoms, her mood elevated extremely; her need for sleep reduced as well, it wasn’t that she didn’t want to sleep, she loved sleeping but she couldn’t sleep well; her behavior would be reckless and impulsive; her ideas would be grandiose; she prioritized self-importance; sometimes she would get aggressive or irritated after recalling some past activities and would think about it for a long time.
Occasionally, she would fell depressed to the point that she would be fatigued; would feel worthlessness and guilt; she had the inability to concentrate and to make simple decisions; she would feel sadness and would cry even if there was no solid reason behind it; time to time, she would feel anger, agitation, and irritation; there would be significant changes in sleep patterns and appetite; she would feel indifference and pessimism; sometimes she would worry or feel anxiety excessively; she had the inability to find pleasure in former interests; she would withdraw herself from social gathering; and of course, she would think about suicide and death.