BXBX NOVEL Chapter 15 - How Foolish I Was Back Then
Chapter 15 - How Foolish I Was Back Then
In her heart, she desperately prayed that her past self wouldn’t say what was coming next. However, she knew her prayers were futile. These were events she had personally experienced. There could be no mistake…
Looking at the junior brother standing before her, his expression blank, the current him had lost the handsome demeanor he had when he first joined the sect. He looked much more haggard than before. Yu Ling’er felt a mix of disdain and concern in her heart.
She spoke out, “Junior Brother Yu Xuan, stop looking at me like that.”
Initially, she was very angry. After she had desperately protected Ye Xuan, he abandoned her, almost costing her life. But now, after being counseled by Senior Brother Qin, she understood.
She was sure Ye Xuan could defeat the severely injured tiger demon that had lost its demon core, but Ye Xuan was just a mortal. How could he discern the state of the tiger demon? Even if the tiger demon was already dead, its mere corpse would be a terrifying sight for him.
Expecting Ye Xuan to claim the tiger demon’s head was indeed too much. But because he once said he would die in front of her, which touched her, his actual abandonment made her angry. That’s probably why she despised him.
But she shouldn’t have held him to such high standards, nor should she have been angry. The past Yu Ling’er in the scene was trying to find a way to forgive Ye Xuan. However, the present Yu Ling’er only saw how ludicrous her thoughts were back then.
Why hadn’t she seen the pain, the despair in his eyes? If she had truly understood his feelings, perhaps she might have believed his words.
If Ye Xuan knew Yu Ling’er’s current thoughts, he would probably say, “No, you wouldn’t have believed it, because the villain’s eyes in the original script were clearly filled with evil, unwillingness, resentment…” Ye Xuan knew the true nature of the villain he scripted, as he wrote the villain’s plot according to the heroine’s script.
And now, Yu Ling’er, with clenched fists, fixed her gaze intently on the scene.
Yu Ling’er had come to a realization: she really shouldn’t have deliberately distanced herself from her junior brother. He was just a mortal, and the mere fact that he had the intention to say he would protect her at all costs was commendable. There was no need for him to actually do so.
With this thought, she said to Ye Xuan, “Junior Brother, are you still troubled by what happened before? I apologize, I was a bit harsh back then… I’m really not angry anymore, you shouldn’t dwell on that incident.”
She believed Ye Xuan would understand which incident she was referring to. But upon hearing Yu Ling’er’s words, Ye Xuan’s eyes filled with despair, as if he was about to lose his footing.
With a face full of despair, he asked Yu Ling’er:
“Senior Sister, do you really think… I would abandon you and flee?”
Hearing Ye Xuan’s words, Yu Ling’er frowned slightly, but after some thought, she said, “Junior Brother, I know, at that time you might… have wanted to find someone to save me, I understand.”
“No, Junior Sister, listen to me.” At that moment, Ye Xuan, despite knowing that Yu Ling’er would likely not believe him, couldn’t suppress his urge to explain: “Actually, it was I who desperately saved you. I even used my body to block that fatal claw from the tiger demon—!!!”
“??!!!” Upon hearing Ye Xuan’s words, Yu Ling’er couldn’t help but show a face full of doubt, and then chuckled, “Alright, Junior Brother, I understand, you don’t have to say anymore…”
If Ye Xuan really blocked that fatal claw from the tiger demon, he would have been pierced through by the tiger at that time. Perhaps he did fight with the tiger demon for a while for her sake. But, it wasn’t important anymore; he must have abandoned her afterward.
“No, he didn’t—!!!” Outside the scene, Yu Ling’er couldn’t help but shout out loud. However, inside the scene, Yu Ling’er couldn’t hear her.
Yu Ling’er’s words made Ye Xuan think that she believed him and he was overjoyed. Indeed, his senior sister was willing to listen to his explanation.
He quickly continued, “At that time, I had already saved you, but it was Yu Shou, that bastard, who drove me away. He deliberately released the tiger demon, aiming to play the hero to win your affection, senior sister. But he didn’t expect the situation to turn out in a way that he couldn’t make his entrance.”
Ye Xuan’s words turned Yu Ling’er’s expression cold. Her somewhat naive face showed real anger.
She looked up at Ye Xuan, “Then, why did it become him saving me and you not being there?” The indifference in her eyes was not noticed by Ye Xuan.
But outside the scene, Yu Ling’er could clearly see how cold her own eyes were back then. She vividly remembered how ridiculous she found Ye Xuan’s explanation that everything was arranged by Senior Brother Qin.
In that moment, Ye Xuan became like a clown in her eyes. That was when Yu Ling’er thought she finally understood the meaning of the phrase “the human heart is treacherous” taught by her father. It referred to people like her junior brother.
Back then, she even felt a bit… proud.
She thought she had learned to see into people’s hearts. But now, looking back, Yu Ling’er only felt how stupid she was, so full of herself. Her junior brother’s sincerity was treated as a joke.
And all the schemes of Senior Brother Yu Shou, she took for righteousness. Watching her past self in the scene, Yu Ling’er wished she could rush in and slap herself.
However, she couldn’t.
Especially seeing herself in the scene, smugly curling her lips…
She really wanted to curse at herself: What are you proud of—!!! She couldn’t do anything to her past self in the scene. Those were events that had already happened. Or rather, they were a future that had already disappeared. She couldn’t even slap herself.
Because at that moment, she was surrounded by darkness, time standing still. She couldn’t see anything and could only watch the scene unfold quietly.
Unaware of Yu Ling’er’s cold gaze, Ye Xuan naively thought that she believed his explanation. Excitedly, he said, “It was Yu Shou who forced me to leave. Because I saved you and ruined his plan to play the hero, he held a grudge against me, wanting you to misunderstand and look down on me—!”
“He forced you, and you just left?” Yu Ling’er asked, her gaze growing even colder.
Outside the scene, Yu Ling’er’s feelings of regret deepened even more.