BXBX NOVEL Chapter 593: I might have a little problem (1)
Chapter 593: I might have a little problem (1)
However, teacher Lu was so shocked that she could not even catch her breath. She grabbed Lu Xin’s arm so tightly that her knuckles turned white.
A huge panic enveloped her. She wanted to pull her hand back, but she didn’t even have the strength to do so.
On the surface, both of them seemed very calm.
Teacher Lu’s hand was only holding onto Lu Xin’s arm, but because she was too tired, she seemed to be more relaxed.
Their eyes met, and the setting sun shone outside the window.
“It’s really strange …”
Lu Xin continued, ” I’ve never been able to recall those memories for so many years. However, when I do, I find that every single detail of what had happened was crystal clear. I can even remember how I felt at that time. I can remember the feeling of each and every one of them dying by my hands. I can also remember the expression on their faces when they looked at me before they died …
Teacher Lu suddenly covered her mouth with her hands, not letting herself make any sound.
However, her shoulders were shaking violently.
Lu Xin turned around calmly and raised his hand slightly, as if he was going to stroke her hair.
However, he still gave up.
He sighed softly. but what I’m most curious about is that in this memory, my own feelings, my mind, and even the clear scenes of those things that happened at that time, it’s like I’ve gone back in time.
in that memory, I’ve been killing people …
but I don’t remember feeling any regret or pain when I killed them. I …
“Stop …”
Teacher Lu’s trembling voice suddenly rang out. Her throat was tight and her
body was shaking violently.
His voice seemed to be pleading, “”Please, please, don’t say anymore …”
Lu Xin hesitated for a moment before slowly saying, ” but I really don’t know who to talk to …
He looked at teacher Lu with a strange look in his eyes and whispered, ” when I thought of these things, I understood more things. I finally knew that I had experienced such things before. I had already gone crazy …
at the same time, I also understand why you’re afraid of me. Is this the reason?
Teacher Lu’s body trembled violently. She shook her head and seemed to be sobbing, but she did not answer.
I can understand, I can really understand …
Lu Xin repeated the words twice, as if to comfort her. He then whispered, ” at that time, 1 didn’t know that you were afraid of me. Probably because I didn’t want to remember, my memory stopped at that bloody scene. 1 don’t remember why I left the orphanage at that time, and I don’t know how you survived in that serious situation …
I don’t even know how I got through that period of time, and how I started going to school and working. It’s like after the orphanage incident, many years have passed in. flash. Now. my clear memory starts from a rainy night. That day. I had just finished working overtime and was taking the subway home when. suddenly met you, so I smiled and greeted you …
She wondered if Lu Xin’s words had brought her back to that rainy night.
Her body trembled violently. Although she was covering her mouth, her face was still pale.
Lu Xin didn’t seem to be looking at her, but he was able to see every expression on her face.
He was silent for a while, his eyes filled with deep sadness.
However, the expression on his face was somewhat out of his control. It was calm, but it also seemed a little strange.
That seemed to be … Mocking?
“It’s really strange that you didn’t run away at that time
“No… It’s not …”
Lu Xin’s arm trembled. She put down her hand that was covering her mouth.
His face was pale, but there was an unnatural flush on it, which was a sign of abnormal excitement.
She cut Lu Xin off with force. Her usually beautiful and gentle face was now filled with rare anger.
He used all his strength to shout, “”So you …”
“So everything you did after that was to make up for it?” all these years, you’ve been saving and taking care of us just to make it up to us? ”
“..”
It was rare for Lu to show such an expression of anger, so Lu Xin was slightly stunned.
He seemed to be a little unaccustomed to it, but this made him have a kind of calm expression.
He looked at teacher Lu’s Red eyes and said softly, “”lf I’m making it up to you, what’s wrong with that?” no, it’s completely wrong …
Teacher Lu shouted, her hands clenched tightly and her ears turned red. It was obvious how hard she was using her strength. I don’t want your compensation, and they don’t want your compensation either. What you did at that time will never be compensated …
There was a power to his words, and Lu Xin didn’t know how to respond.
Looking into teacher Lu’s eyes, he seemed to be a little confused.”Then you are…”
Teacher Lu’s face was full of tears.”All I want is for you to come back …”
“l only hope that the original you …”
“Come back …
This answer was completely out of Lu Xin’s expectations, and he even asked with some difficulty, “”My original self?” “What does it look like?”
“The original you is the current you …”
Teacher Lu clenched her fists so that she could continue. I-I don’t know what the hell you’re thinking of, but I-I have my own judgment. I remember when I was taken to the orphanage. I met you strange children there. 1 could tell from the beginning that you were different from other children, each and every one of you was different …
some of them make me feel very scared. They look quiet, but they’re scarier than the gangsters who Rob people on the street.
you’re the only one who’s different. You’re the quietest one among the children …
you’re very well-behaved and honest. The older children don’t play with you much, so you also seem very …
. I’m lonely!’
I was picked up from the streets. I’ve been hungry for many days. I still remember the first time I saw food. I … At that time, I never had enough to eat. If someone had food in their hands, I would definitely snatch it and stuff it into my mouth.”
so, I remember that I’ve robbed many people’s things, and I’ve also been beaten up by others …
the older children call me a lunatic, and the younger children are also avoiding me …
only you, only you aren’t angry when I snatch your things . . .
you’re the only one who took the initiative to pull me up when I was knocked down by others …
Teacher Lu spoke intermittently. Every word was spoken very loudly. She was using all her strength to defend the truth.
so, so what happened after that was definitely not you …
She raised her head and glared at Lu Xin with a menacing look. those people must have done something to you. After all, I’ve seen you being pushed into the basement countless times, and I’ve also seen fresh wounds and needle marks on you countless times …
“After all, that incident happened three days after you were locked up …”
Because she had been speaking so loudly, her breathing was not smooth. She panted a few times, and her body seemed to be a little weak.
Lu Xin hesitated for a moment before raising his hand and patting her back.
When he patted her for the first time, teacher Lu straightened her back and her eyes were sharp.
She looked at Lu Xin with an unquestionable gaze, wasn’t afraid when 1 saw you again.”
She seemed to be loudly announcing,”l didn’t!”
I just want to know if you’ve returned …
B-because I’ve experienced what I thought was the best place in the world, only to find out that it was a hellish process. So, so 1 decided that I would build such a beautiful place myself, I … I’m stupid and useless. I can barely maintain this orphanage with your help, but no matter what, the orphanage is done …” then, I only have one wish left, the you from before, the gentle and kind you …
“Are you still there?”
“You, are you still that you?”
Lu Xin’s heart seemed to have been touched by her words.
In his calm mood, there was a faint splash of waves.
He raised his head and looked out the window. The setting sun was like blood, but it was still bright enough to hurt people.
So he closed his eyes slightly, and the distant memories were pulled back to him. He remembered that night full of cries and screams, and the smell of blood. He remembered that everywhere he walked, there was blood everywhere. He remembered the sound of bones breaking, and the steel bars and cement of the building were twisted and broken. He remembered the blood-covered faces, and the laughter …
This caused his headache to act up again. The blood vessels at his temples were blocked, and it was uncomfortable.
His eyes started to lose focus again, but teacher Lu’s determined eyes were still looking at him.
She was still waiting for her answer.
She was questioning herself.
Lu Xin really wanted to answer her, but his mind was in a mess.
When he opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was a little hoarse, so he shut up and adjusted his voice.
Then, he gave what he thought was the most honest answer, ” I may have always been myself …
“But . . . n
He paused for a moment, knocked his head lightly, and said, “”l’ve got a little problem,”
Teacher Xiaolu pursed her lips. Her eyes were filled with fear and worry. However, her worry prevailed.
Tears were still in her eyes, but her eyes were obviously frightening.
Lu Xin didn’t even want to look at those eyes.
He slowly turned around and walked out of the room in silence. When he reached the door, he stopped.
“l will work hard to cure myself..”