BXBX NOVEL Chapter 205 205 Guilt
Chapter 205 Chapter 205 Guilt
She was happy- it was in her dancing eyes, her flushed face, and in her colorful words.
As for him- well, Nexus wasn't exactly feeling swell at the moment.
Here was a sweet innocent girl- happy and excited to see him. Even though she had literally waited all night for him while he had been cozied up with another woman- on the other side of town!
His conscience pricked him like the podding of the sharp end of a pin pricked needle;
'whoa,' he thought;.
'why do I feel so guilty?' he wondered; 'I really thought I was starting to become a heartless emotionless douche bag. . .am I- SORRY?'
His guilty thoughts sliced him from within as he lowered himself onto the soft plush sofa. Quickly, he stole a glance at her- searching for any kind of reprieve.
To his side, the succubus' eyes danced innocently on her face as she continued to chat away mindlessly;
". . .it was kind of rough being all by myself. . .I mean, I actually started to hear voices. But I told myself that you will always come back no matter what."
She blinked when she saw him staring at her;
"My lord? Is something wrong?"
Even the concern in her voice sent rippling waves through him. He answered;
"Crystal, you could have easily caught a cold! There's a warm bed indoors, as well as a steady fireplace. You didn't have to stay out all night."
Unmoved, she shrugged her shoulders;
"You worry too much m'lord. Before you found me, I was sleeping in caves, enclaves, and groves. The open night sky comforts me. I like to see the stars, they help me to sleep."
She settled in on the right side of the couch- wiggling her butt till she found a comfortable spot.
Nexus was touched. He replied with concern;
"I get that Crystal. But you do know that that part of your life is all over right? You're never going back to being homeless again. In the future, whenever you want to wait up for me, you can do so in the comfort of this house- indoors."
With those big round eyes of hers, she looked up to him and said quietly;
"But this place scares me?"
Nexus stammered; "W-w-what??"
"I mean, I will never be able to sleep soundly in this big empty house–"
Nexus was about to point out that this was merely a cottage- but then realized that, to the succubus, this was probably a big deal.
"–it gets super lonely when night falls," she continued; "There's no one else around- not a single human person. The silence and solitude gets to me. Also, not knowing when you'll be back adds to the night terrors."
It was only when Nexus' lungs collapsed, that he knew he had been holding his breath.
His eyes squinted at the poor girl beside him.
Of course, she was right.
He definitely had not seen things that way. Their former home- the Russell Castle, was completely different from this place. There was always a guard around. Or a handful of servants. And at night, whenever Monica was around, her late night creeping could always be felt.
But here was different.
Nexus sighed again;
"I'm sorry," he breathed; "This one is on me. I should have considered all these factors. I'm not quite sure what I was thinking leaving you alone- especially since this place is still new, and especially since I know how you're still trying to ."
Her eyes shot open- and she slid over to him;
"No my lord," she protested shaking her head; "Please, don't. It's not your fault at all. These are all my issues, I didn't mean to make you feel that way. I'm sorry m'lord. . ."
Again- her candidness struck him with a resounding clap;
From his gut, remorse gnawed at his insides.
He had been too detached from her.
"Don't be sorry Crystal," he chimed; "Don't be at all. I'll try to be a little more present from now. You won't be alone much often."
She shook her head stubbornly;
"I understand completely lord Nexus. We're foreigners in a strange city, and I understand that you need to make a living. You've been gracious enough to let me tag along with you. And m'lord, I truly am totally grateful for that. . ."
"Crystal. . ."
But she continued;
". . .so, please, I can not allow myself to get in the way of your schedule. I'm sorry, I know you were probably busy with more important things."
Once again, chords of remorse struck his heart.
"No," he said.
"My lord?"
He shifted his weight to the left- sliding his knees upwards on the couch, and faced her completely;
"No, there's nothing more important than being with you. . ."
On her face, a pink blush began to bloom.
". . .I admit, I've been carried away lately by a lot of other businesses, but, right here, right now. . .I want you to know–"
His hands found hers;
"–that you're what's important to me. Remember what I said to you when we first met? I told you I was going to take care of you. . .didn't I?"
Eyes moist, and lips parted slightly, Crystal nodded gently- twice.
"Good," his hands traveled upwards- to her face; "I want you to remember that. . .every second that we're not together. . .I will always be thinking of you. . ."
He inched closer- shuffling along the plush sofa, and cupped her right cheek
". . .never forget that, okay?"
Using his thumb to wipe away the tear drop trickling down, he asked;
"Promise?"
Crystal was totally submerged in his eyes at this point. So, like an automaton, she nodded once more- bobbing her head up and down frantically.
Still cupping her right cheek, his intense gaze drifted downwards to her lips.
"I want to kiss you," he said- quietly; "Can I kiss you?"
Of course Nexus knew he didn't have to ask. But he wanted her to feel like she had a choice.
She muttered softly- barely audibly;
"As you wish my lord. . .my body is yours to–"
Before she could finish, his head jerked forward and tilted slightly to the side. Just as his lips closed in on hers, an ecstatic gasp escaped from her throat.
Slowly, he sucked on her lower lip- parting her mouth wider and wider- giving room for his tongue to slip in. He found the pink organ in her mouth, and he coiled his around hers- meeting her moisture with his.
She moaned into his mouth. And his tongue continued to make love to hers. With Nexus in the lead, their tongues overlapped each other, sliding atop each other in sleek moists thuds, and as they flattened, coiled, and recoiled.
Crystal tasted minty- like freshly brewed tea. Her mouth was small- and her pink lips even smaller. Hungrily, he inched forward- kissing on her, and groping along the thickness of her thighs- slowing moving upwards, he ruffled her gown in gentle squeezes- deliberately taking his time as he worked his way to her–