Chapter 411: The joy of life (1)
As all of this happens, speculation thrown around and the Six Great Powers ponder on Death Monarch action, the man himself is quite enjoying his morning.
He is walking, enjoying his walk.
The breeze that is blowing through Pandemonium right now is pleasant. It has been a long time since he could enjoy such relaxing walk.
Last night he had already settled most of his affair and he had talked to Loki. Now, there is only one thing left for him to do.
He did not let himself be seen and he had ordered the Shadow Guards not to follow him.
Right now, since Sasha is outside Pandemonium the ruling rights in the Shadow Guards fall to Shinji.
That swordsman finally accepted Azief offer and become the Vice Leader of the Shadow Guard.
Of course nobody knows that he had been appointed to such a powerful position since the appointment matters of the Shadow Guards have always been under the discretion of Death Monarch.
They are the top intelligence organization in the world and with the Shadow Guards expanding outwards, they have many operatives in many organization and factions.
But since Sasha is busy sooner or later, the Central Government would surely know that the Shadow Guard had another public face.
For most people, when they think of the Shadow Guards they think of hooded men with no faces.
Other than Sasha no one knew who is the member of the Shadow Guards.
Probably the only person who knew the identity of the Shadow Guard operatives is only Death Monarch and Sasha.
It is because of the mystery surrounding them that make them appear even more terrifying. And no one ever caught a Shadow Guard.
He hears the chirping birds as he was brought back to the present and saw them flying on the sky searching for food.
‘Enough’ he said to himself as he forces himself not to think any more about last night event.
High on the clouds a few griffins could be seen on the outline of the clouds when the sun shines just at the right angle.
On the calm sea of Pandemonium, sea anemones with rainbow-like colors hang around the Great Barrier Reef.
Today, nothing is going to spoil his mood. The sky is clear, the clouds are moving gently and the day is perfect.
He walked to a humble residence on one of the empty land around the towers near his Centre Palace.
He walks around and take a deep breath. It has been a long time since he is home. There is a lot of thing in his heart now. Like it has been filled up.
He felt excitement and he felt happiness with each step closer to her. It is unlike him feeling this electrifying feeling in his heart.
He fell in love and he never had the right way to express it. Loki was right about one thing. His love life is complicated.
He smiles and wonder
‘Is there anyone on the world is having the same problem like him right now? Isn’t this also kind of a blessing? To be loved’
He asks himself internally.
He is a lucky man. For someone that always wanted to be loved, it is ironic how it happened.
Before the Fall, he always refrains from falling in love. Because usually the people he falls in love with is either already taken or have no interest in him.
To be honest, his face is not as handsome as he is now.
But it was not ugly either.
Right now if you look at his face, it was flawless, every proportion, in every angle. Even his coldness only accentuates his beautiful face
It is manly but also have that trace of childishness that give him an appearance of a beautiful man.
He always misses that timing. Sofia was his first love. But she was not only his love. Of course he could not admit to people that he never dated anyone.
When he arrived at the age of twenty, he decided to work, to try to be a writer of sorts. He writes and send his stories to some publisher but all he got is more heartbreak.
It is a normal story not so much of a sob story.
There are millions of aspiring writers that could not get their book published. Then he gives up on that and then he tries other job.
You know…When you find your dream and know that you are not that good at it and decided to give up?
Some people could move on.
But he could not.
No matter what job he did, it never felt the same. It does not compare to the joy of creating worlds.
That is what Azief felt when he writes. When he creates characters and the world they live in, he felt like he was God.
He could make the world disappears in two sentence and could create worlds with one word.
Then when you started giving up, it become easier to give up other things. He gave up finding love because finding love is expensive and probably overrated
At least, that is what he thought before.
Like everyone else, Azief was painfully ignorant of love. He used to think that if only you have money, you could fall in love and live rightfully.
Because that is what people said to him.
In the culture he lived in before, they said to him ‘Son, you have to study hard. Then you can go to university, get a good job, and then marry and you can live happily ever after’
But the world he lives in is completely different than that. It doesn’t matter if you study hard. Effort doesn’t guarantee success.
And good guys will always finish last. You have to be vicious and cruel to succeed. And he didn’t want to be like that. But by not being like that, he could only become ordinary.
And the woman he saw all liked people that have money. It made sense. Azief was never angry about that.
He always felt that it is logical. If he had a daughter, would he entrust his daughter to some jobless guy with no prospect?
No father would.
He understands that and he accepted that. So, he gives up.
He decided, who could love a man like him that was so unloved, his own family do not talk to him or treated him like one?
Who could love such a man? It is a hard truth to swallow, but he swallows it without forgetting the taste, bitter.
And when he accepted that truth, instead of feeling sad, he felt liberated by that revelation. He had no expectation of love and so his heart was closed.
But he had learned that love is not as logical as he thought. He saw many great kind of love as he grows to become who he is now. He saw how dep the love Azul had for Meihul.
He saw the kind of love a father would extend to his son when they are in the brink of their death when he was at Earth 39.
He saw more than just love as he traverses through dimension and the vast starry skies.
He saw a Will that could never erased in the Jotnar Alsurt, and he saw many aspects of life and death, of love and hatred in his journey.
Love as he slowly finding out, is not as simple as he thought.
And if the Fall did not happen, he would probably live his life alone, sad and broken.
But the Fall happened, and from that day on, he had great adventures, see things that so many people could not have imagined.
He sees stars on the Vast Universe, beautiful with rainbow like circle ring around it stars, planets exploding, worlds born anew and the myriads of possibilities of life and death all across the Universe and for the first time, he felt not how small he is, but how this Universe is so full of life and stories he never thought possible.
The truth of the world and the Universe did not make him sad, it made him feel excited. Since he became Lord Shadow, he experiences many encounters and those encounters shaped him to become who he is now.
He met Tan. He met Sofia. He met Sina, Loki, even those people, like Hamad and Hatta. He met Athena, Freya, Wang Jian and…. Katarina.
He smiles bitterly as he thinks of that day four months ago
He lost a lot that day when he made his decision.
But he also gained a lot. It is funny now that he thinks about it. It was like he was in high school again dealing with his heart that have a crush.
It is weird, strange and yet it has no trace of that anxiousness and uncertainty of the past.
It is a good kind of weird.
As he enjoys the chirping of the birds and life around him he stopped walking. He thinks back to the past.
And he smiles as he thinks of her. She came into his heart, as something more than just a friend.
In the beginning he had to hid his feeling. No, he thought to himself. It is not that he hid his feeling. At that time, he thought he had no feelings for her.
He still thinks of those days. It is a simpler day.
At that time, he was just Azief. Not Lord Shadow. Or Death Monarch. Just a guy trying to survive. And at that time she was beside him, from the beginning.
He then continued walking
Even after all this time, he couldn’t believe that his heart is still nervous. He arrived at the entrance of the house.
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This chapter is around eight thosuand words. Anyway, thsic hapter is tying up loose ends on Earth before he went and get ut of Earth. Anyway, in thsi chapter it will be revealed who he chooeses and soem old names will coem up once again. Expect to see the world getting bigger as Azief is slwoly climbing that rank to go to Sovereign. When he enter Divine Comprehension he woudl onlt be left with two more rnaks before he became Sovereign.
And why does my browser did not show red marker on mispelled words? Damn.. Anyway, I am already writing about him summoning the stairways so for now enjoy these little rest
And I will explain alot of things about next chater since some people didnt get the hint about who he choesses. Anyway, until tomorrow. And please vote and leave soem comments.
Ah, and I’m back and it is also the name of your sex tape ( A shout out to Asura cause I just started watching Brooklyn Nine Nine and if I’m late chuirning chapter blame him)
And for patron, next day the whoel chapter will be released so dont give spoilers. Ciao