BXBX NOVEL Chapter 494 Changing Topics
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~~~(POV: Cera Adamo)~~~
~~~(Location: Walking Country Side of Capital City Zenith, The Kingdom of Zenith)~~~
~~~(Time: 5:50 PM)~~~
Amelia is having a hard time given the direction the conversation has turned. Neither of us expected to have a conversation like this. One where we contemplate purpose to life. I haven\'t asked myself if I\'m living the life I want to live.
She brings up a great point that change has to occur when you want it to. It can\'t just happen on its own.
"I\'m sorry for bringing up such a hard discussion... You probably have questions you want to ask me. Things about my travels. I\'m ready to answer any questions you have."
She\'s decided to take a seat on a rock and is trying to get her mind off what I\'ve said. It\'s not something a parent wants to hear, but it\'s unavoidable. The truth is there.
A long sigh escapes her lips, and I see that all the stress she\'s been holding in has come out. It\'s weighing down on her. Even though she\'s regained her youth, she\'s going to age like milk at this rate.
"Sometimes... I just want to run away from it all... Just leave and never come back... I get so tired of everyone wanting to know me or see me... To talk to me or meet me... The only time I\'m alone is when I\'m in my office or bed..."
I couldn\'t imagine living a life like that... Her caring and kind nature have come back to bite her. Everyone gets tired of it eventually... Living such a selfless life...
All the people important to me are the reason I do what I do... I came back in time to fix my family... Everything I\'ve ever done... It\'s been for them... And right now, Amelia needs to hear something important.
"Then run."
The words come out of my mouth, and it\'s like Amelia\'s world freezes in time. I can see it in her eyes and body. What I\'ve just said has stopped her in her thoughts.
She raises her head and looks at me. A dumbfounded expression on her face, and I know what it\'s from. It\'s because of her connection with her kids. If they didn\'t exist, she\'d be free.
Her speechlessness is telling me that this is the first time she\'s seen this side of me. The one that I call a monster. She doesn\'t owe anyone anything, and the kids she\'s taken in are not as important as she is. She values herself by how she cares for others.
Doing that will only lead to darker places that you can\'t get out of. She needs to be someone that isn\'t tied to another person.
"Umm..."
She tries to talk, but she gets nothing out. Seems that what I\'ve said is something she\'s never expected from me.
"If you want to leave all of this behind, you can. You\'re allowed to live."
Living, surviving, thriving... All of them are different things used for different lifestyles. But none of them describe Amelia. The best word to describe Amelia is... Slave. She\'s a slave to the needs of others. She always puts others before herself. A slave to their needs.
Excluding the fact she rejects many nobles, there isn\'t anything she wouldn\'t do if someone came to her needing her. And thus, desperate people have come to take advantage of her.
"I don\'t know how to respond to that... Why would you say that?"
There is a desperation in her voice, but I can\'t tell if it\'s from my words, or because she agrees with me. I\'m not a mind reader.
"Because no one in your life is going to tell you."
My meaning has a bigger effect than I thought. She actually visibly recoils.
There is a long silence between us, and we sit here in this one spot for hours. Not speaking a word. The sun goes down, and the lights of the city fill our view. It doesn\'t dim the night sky on this clear night.
The temperature has dropped, and I can only think that Amelia has moved because she doesn\'t want to go back home.
As I stand up, she doesn\'t react. It\'s getting late, and the night is a sign that you should be home. But Amelia probably doesn\'t feel that way right now.
"You\'ve been thinking about what I said for too long. There is no hidden meaning behind it. It\'s just my opinion. Something that I would do."
Being honest like this with Amelia is something he needs. I\'ve worn a mask around her for a long time. I can be like this with Sally because she\'s like me in many ways. Once a weak, fragile person turned strong given that one chance too.
Amelia hasn\'t been through the same things Sally and I have. Sally had a horrible life, and I lost pretty much everything I ever loved. When I was given a chance to change that, I took it.
That situation is what\'s happening to Amelia right now. She\'s thinking about leaving. And for the first time in all the time I\'ve known her. She is thinking about herself.
"Take me back to the mansion."
Her few words tell me more than she\'d ever say at this moment. She doesn\'t think of the mansion as a home. That\'s why she called it a mansion.
Without another word, I open my wings up, and she stands and holds onto me. I take off, and we glide through the clouds. I\'m taking it slow so she can enjoy it.
"Would it be wrong or evil of me if I said that I want to keep flying and never come back? Would you do it if I asked?"
She\'s coming to a decision and one that\'ll form the rest of her life for a long time. And I\'m not going to make it easy for her.
"You\'ll have to ask me, mom."
Those simple words cause her to freeze up, and I don\'t know what\'ll happen next. The mansion is, at tops, a couple of minutes away. She has that much time left.
I look at her, and she looks to be on the verge of a breakdown, and one I\'ve seen before. Both on my mom from Earth and on Hailey. It happens when someone makes a life-altering decision.
"It scares me... To think about this... To consider it..."
There isn\'t much more time cause when we land back at the mansion. She\'ll be forced to let it go and get sucked into a life that doesn\'t make her happy. Not the happiness that she wants.
"It scared me too. When I had to make a decision like this."
Normally she\'d start bombarding me with questions about what I meant and what I\'ve been through to know that. She\'d be worrying as a dotting mother would. Instead, she stays quiet and keeps her eyes tightly shut.
Before she can come to an answer, I bring us down to the ground and land in the central courtyard. The guards flinch and straighten up. The sudden and unexpected entrance has been frightened As I let Amelia go, she fixes how she looks and walks to the door.
She turns around and looks at me with a smile. Waiting for me to follow her inside.
"I don\'t have to make a decision yet. You\'re not leaving until the day after tomorrow."
Now she\'s just putting off the inevitable. But if that\'s how she copes, I won\'t stop it. It\'s coming, and nothing will change that. She\'ll need to confront it.
"Yeah, but if you don\'t make one by the time I leave. You\'ll never sleep again. Trust me. It\'ll keep you awake forever."
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A/N: Below this line, I\'ll be keeping Cera\'s player information. That way, I won\'t have to place it into the story above anymore. It takes about 180 words up.
[Slayer (Zern) Lvl.228][Tier-3]
[Exp: 42/100%]
[Title: The Son of Arch-Angel Michael (Hidden)]
[Stats] [Strength - 7095][Endurance - 7045][Dexterity - 7215][Speed - 8240][Focus - 19,660]
[Mana aura control: 6/100%]
[Health: 76,560,000,000/76,560,000,000] [Mana: 216,600,000,000/216,600,000,000]
[Stat Points: 350] [Armor rating: 500]
[Inventory] [Dice of Wayland (Divine)] [Hardened Tree sap Armor (Very Rare)] [The Witness (Legendary Sword)] [Fenrir\'s Whistle (Divine)] [Camping gear] [Food Rations 3x] [Dried meat 3x] [Fishing poles 2x] [Fish 8x] [Festival Garbs 2x] [4x EXP Boosts]
[Passive Perks]
[Inheritor of the Sword] [Son of Heaven] [Slayer of Evil] [Holy Willow Trees Savior] [Finder of Legends] [The Divine who has Legend] [Destined for Greatness] [Dungeon Diver] [An Overachiever]
[Active Skills]
[Heavens light Lvl.74 325/7400] [Protected by Heaven Lvl.74 225/7400] [Slash Lvl.92 4600/21000] [Parry Lvl.68 85/6800] [Double Strike N/A] [Kingslayer N/A] [Raging Machine N/A] [Winged Glory] [Angelic Flight] [Divine Pressure Exertion] [Divinity Pulse] [Controlled Fun]