BXBX NOVEL Chapter 132: I want to check on Miyagi — 132
Chapter 132: I want to check on Miyagi — 132
Translated by KaiesV
Edited by KaiesV
In the middle of the night, I see the marks made on Miyagi.
The red color is clearly reflected in the mirror.
What was put on today cannot disappear today.
I put the hand mirror on the table and lean back on the bed.
Concealer and foundation can make it less noticeable. But if I’m at home, I won’t have to go to the trouble of hiding it.
「…I guess I’ll just have to stay home. But this is boring, though.」
There is nothing I want or have to do at home, but it is also a hassle to go out while worrying about the marks made by Miyagi.
I haven’t made any promises to my friends yet.
I just thought it would be nice to go out together. There is no place I want to go, nor is there any place I have to go. If I go to college after the holidays, I will see them even if I don’t want to.
There is nothing wrong with slacking off at home.
Though it’s not so good to think about what Miyagi did to me.
Since high school, I feel like I am the only one who has been treated badly.
For example, I was given a hickey on my arm to see if it would disappear faster if she put a cut lemon on top of the hickey.
For example, she unbuttoned my rain-soaked uniform and put a hickey on my chest.
Miyagi always does not do anything bad.
But I chose to live with Miyagi, and here I am. I am sure that if I were to explain the current situation to the me of last year, I would not believe it.
I press my palm on the mark made by Miyagi.
Miyagi appears to have no connection to the word “tame,” but even so, she still seems to have been reserved in the beginning. Now there is no hesitation on her.
I back away from the bed and hold my knees.
My gaze falls on the platypus perched under the table.
With tissues growing out of its back, it seems to belong to Miyagi, even though it was bought as something for the two of us to use. Perhaps because it resembles the crocodile tissue covers in Miyagi’s room, I naturally accept the presence of such things in my room. In the past, the growing number of Miyagi’s things in my room used to be a burden, but now I feel that Miyagi’s uniforms and cut-and-sewns stored in chests are part of the fabric of my room.
I get up and bring the accessory case from the top of the chest. I put it on the table and take out the pendant that Miyagi gave me.
The day of the graduation ceremony, the pendant remained with me in exchange for an envelope, and I haven’t had it since then.
I would like to touch Miyagi as I did when I was wearing this pendant.
I wish I had kissed Miyagi watching the movie.
I put the silver chain on my finger.
I see a small moon-shaped ornament.
I check the chain with my fingertips and squeezes the small ornament.
I don’t want to go back to those days, but I envy the person I was back then.
I pull the platypus in and place the pendant on its head. I lay down on my bed and hump the wall.
I don’t make a loud noise, so there is no answer, but I hear a noise from next door. In the dead of night, I didn’t have to listen very carefully to know that it was the sound of a door being opened.
I raise myself out of bed.
I’m not sure if I should go to the common area.
I don’t have anything to talk about.
I think for a minute about what to do and then get up. I’m glad I introduced the sweatshirt. It was an easy access to the common spaces.
When I opened the door, the light was on and I saw Miyagi standing in front of the refrigerator. Miyagi is wearing a familiar sweatshirt, or rather a sweatshirt I borrowed when I stayed at her house over winter break.
「You can’t sleep?」
When I speak to her from the front of the table, she replies in a curt voice,「I was going to sleep, but I’m thirsty.」Miyagi takes out a bottle of cider from the refrigerator. She pours it into a glass and drinks about a third of the clear liquid.
「Is Sendai-san not sleeping?」
Miyagi looks at me with a glass in her hand.
「I thought I’d have a drink too.」
I mention something that might be a reason to come out to the common space.
「Shall I serve you orange juice?」
「Nhn, I’ll just have the one Miyagi is drinking. Give me a sip.」
「This is cider, though.」
「I’ll know it when I see it.」
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「…Then, I’ll give you the rest of it.」
Then Miyagi comes up to me and hands me a glass.
「I don’t need that much.」
I’m not thirsty, nor do I like carbonated drinks. I can’t have more than half the cider left to be forced on me for the right reasons.
I take a sip as I say and try to return the glass. But Miyagi wouldn’t accept it. When I had no choice but to drink half of it and put the glass on the table, Miyagi said to me,「Sendai-san.」
「Are you going out tomorrow?」
「Thanks to someone, I can’t go out even if I wanted to.」
「Hmmm…」
Miyagi emptied the glass on the table as she said she was not interested, even though she had asked me herself. Then she tried to go wash the glass, saying she’ll clean it up.
「Can we talk a little more?」
I grab Miyagi’s arm.
「We don’t have anything to talk about.」
「We don’t need to have one.」
I take the glass away and place it on the table.
Steps closer to Miyagi.
I reach out and touch her lips with my fingertips.
「You want to talk about it, no?」
Miyagi raised her eyebrows at me. Her face was grim to look at, but she did not run away. So I let go of the arm I had grabbed.
「Tell what me you want, Miyagi.」
「Sendai-san just wanted to talk me, right?」
「I don’t know?」
I stroke Miyagi’s cheek and put my palms together.
She must know what I want, and she should run away now.
My memories connect with high school days.
The music preparation room I called after the festival.
I called Miyagi, who was enjoying the cultural festival without me, and grabbed her arm. I then told her that if she didn’t want to be kissed, she could run away.
Even then I wanted to kiss her, even though I didn’t intend to kiss her, and I touched Miyagi.
I wouldn’t say it is exactly the same as now, but it is very similar.
Putting a face to Miyagi.
She says nothing. That doesn’t mean I close my eyes, so I close them myself.
Then, I put my lips together.
It was soft and warm.
It’s the feel of lips I know so well.
But maybe it’s because I haven’t touched it in so long that my heart is pounding so hard I feel like it’s going to break, and my mind goes blank. It’s just our lips meeting, but it becomes painful, and I’ll move away. Soon we kiss again, this time harder, and our lips meet. I grabbed Miyagi’s arm. When I tried to pull her closer, she shook my hand off and pushed my shoulder.
It’s not enough.
I would like to kiss her more.
I grab her hand.
But she shakes me off again, and this time she kicks me in the leg.
「Why didn’t you run away?」
Miyagi doesn’t run away when she wants to run away. I easily accept when I think she will run away anyway. I wish she had run away before I kissed her so I wouldn’t have felt the need to do more.
「…I was just testing to see if Sendai-san was lying. I knew you were a liar. When you promised to watch a movie, you said you wouldn’t do anything weird.」
「That means I won’t do that in my room.」
「I hate that about Sendai-san.」
Miyagi says in a resentful voice and kicks me a little above the ankle, harder than before.
「Now that’s painful.」
When I complained that I was kicked with a fair amount of force, although it was added and subtracted, I was kicked again in the same spot.
「I’m going back to my room.」
Miyagi turns her back on me.
When she has taken three steps toward her room as she declared, I call out to her.
「What are you going to do tomorrow, Miyagi?」
「I’m going out with Maika.」
Miyagi answers with his back to me.
「The weather forecast says it will rain again tomorrow.」
「Sendai-san, you’re still lying. I just looked at the weather forecast, it said it’s going to be sunny.」
Miyagi spun around and denied the appropriate forecast I had mentioned.
「Then maybe I’m looking at it wrong. Are you free the day after tomorrow?」
「…I’m free.」
「I can’t go anywhere because of these marks, and we’ll watch a movie again.」
I touches my neck and smiled.
It is unfair and boring that I’m the only one who can’t leave the house. Miyagi should take responsibility because she created a reason for me not to go out. I’m not asking her to make it interesting, but she should at least keep me company to pass the time.
「I’ll never watch a movie that Sendai-san likes.」
「That’s fine to me.」
When I replied without cracking a smile, Miyagi said,「Good night,」in the grumpiest voice I’ve heard all day.