BXBX NOVEL Chapter 418 - 12.26
Bai Yunyu opened his eyes slowly. It had been so long since the last time he actually lost consciousness because, as a ghost, he was constantly awake and wandering like a vengeful ghost, peeping on handsome men and watching some live-action BL smut.
"Ngghh…" Yunyu felt heavy. It had been a while since he actually had a body.
…
"Wait, body?!"
Yunyu\'s eyes opened wide as he raised his hands. He saw cold and pale fingers, but it was flesh, real flesh.
He pinched his cheek, still very cold, but it was also real flesh.
He has a body now!
Yunyu wanted to get up and looked for Xu Jiansheng, but his body was still too weak. All he could do right now was to flail his hands around and move his head. It took a while for him to calm down, then he realized something shocking.
[PUPA! WHERE IS PUPA!?]
Yunyu became restless as he remembered that his system cracked and dropped in front of him. [Pupa, are you here? Are you okay?]
…
[Goddamn it!]
Yunyu tried to get up again to no avail. He looked around and found himself in Xu Jiansheng\'s room. He knew this room so much because he often peeped on Jiansheng whenever he just took a bath and measured his cock.
[19 centimetres, it\'s very nice indeed…. Wait! This is not the time to think about cock! I need to find Pupa!]
Yunyu shook his head and struggled to get up, but the moment he finally moved his body, the door was opened, and Xu Jiansheng came with a bowl full of freshly picked flowers from his garden. He was surprised to see Yunyu struggled to get up and hurriedly propped him to sit on the bed.
"Why don\'t you call me? Are you alright? Do you feel hurting anywhere?" Jiansheng asked concernedly.
Yunyu stared at Jiansheng. For some reason, he was scared that Jiansheng had done something heinous to him in the name of love. Moreover, he was suspicious that Jiansheng knew his memory as Aaron Xu, so he wanted to bound or exact revenge on Yunyu.
But after seeing such an act of concern, he blamed himself for accusing Xu Jiansheng. All he wanted to do was to give Yunyu a body for him, so he wouldn\'t be a ghost forever.
Yunyu was still worried about Pupa, but he still had to thank Jiansheng first.
"Jiansheng, thank you for helping me…" Yunyu said.
Xu Jiansheng smiled as he caressed Yunyu\'s cold cheek, "You don\'t need to thank me. I will do everything for you, Bai Yunyu. As long as you\'re happy."
"Jiansheng…" Yunyu stared at the man whose smile was so sweet, the young and handsome man who helped him as Aaron Xu still helped him as Xu Jiansheng. "Why are you so good to me?"
"Because I love you," Xu Jiansheng said truthfully. "I love you more than you can imagine, Yunyu."
"But we\'ve only met few times, and the only times we talked was in the cold palace…" Yunyu wanted to pry more on Jiansheng, whether he remembered past event or everything was just a coincidence, and Aaron mysteriously followed him to this world.
"Yeah, we\'ve only talked few times… but whenever I see the spark between our eyes, I kept thinking about you, like falling in love at first sight over and over again," Jiansheng said.
Yunyu was astonished by how sincere this guy was. He truly had the quality of a man Yunyu wanted, unlike the corrupted master of the worlds. Though not all, the majority of them hurt him badly, both physically and mentally.
He wanted someone like Aaron/Jiansheng, who actually cared for him and nurture him. He wanted to make sure once more, "Jiansheng, you\'re really good to me, but I can\'t give you anything…"
"You can give me one thing…" Jiansheng leaned in and landed a gentle kiss on Yunyu\'s pale lips. "You can give me your heart, Bai Yunyu. I\'ve fallen in love with you, and I will do anything to achieve what you want, but for the exchange, I want your love."
"You are talking as if we\'ve been destined to be lovers," Yunyu giggled lightly, "Fine if that\'s what you want. But promise that you will never hurt me. Promise that you\'ll always prioritize me first. Promise that you\'ll never cheat on me. You know that I\'m a very demanding lover… and you will have a ghost as your lover."
Yunyu wasn\'t sure if this was the right idea. But truly, Huang Shu\'s betrayal, combined with Aaron/Jiansheng\'s presence, made him used Jiansheng as escapism.
Xu Jiansheng nodded and promised, "I will never hurt you, will never cheat on you, will always prioritize you first."
They stared at each other, and the spark between them was created again. Yunyu couldn\'t lie that he got this weird, very familiar feeling. As if he was being stared at by his long term lover. If he tried to make more sense about this, Yunyu imagined that he was being pampered and coddled by Han Ye of his world, IF that Han Ye was actually very kind to him.
Like a fantasy that he wished could be true, Yunyu gently caressed Jiansheng\'s cheek, chin and brushed his lips with his cold finger.
[If Pupa is here, it will definitely scold me for falling in love with this man. But I just cannot help it. Both Long Shen and Huang Shu treated me horribly, so Aaron and Jiansheng became my escape…]
[… how many times until I learn not to be entangled with anyone except the master of the world. Yunyu, you fucking idiot.]
Jiansheng already reminded him of Zerocheat, Chief Mamoru Ito. All of them were really good to him, but they became a forgotten sacrifice. Maybe if this was a story, they would be forgotten for real, but if they were still alive, they must\'ve been broken-hearted.
"Jiansheng, you don\'t remember meeting me before, right?" Yunyu asked, wanting to make sure.
"Meeting you? What are you talking about? Our first meet is when you saved me from the guards in the Cold Palace," Xu Jiansheng said.
[Good, he doesn\'t remember of himself as Aaron Xu. So that\'s why he doesn\'t remember the pain he had suffered before.]
"Then… we will be lovers from now on," Yunyu said as he draped his hand on Jiansheng\'s shoulder, then pulled Jiansheng closer for a short kiss.
"Thank you for accepting me, Yunyu…" Jiansheng said as he tasted Yunyu\'s lips some more.
Yunyu wanted more, but Jiansheng didn\'t want to tire Yunyu out, and they still didn\'t know the whole… ghost and human sex. So he shook his head and released Yunyu\'s hand from his nape. "You need to eat first."
Jiansheng the bowl full of flower to Yunyu, which confused him, "What is this?" Yunyu asked.
"It\'s your food. That old shaman said that you cannot eat human food. All you can eat is flowers with a strong fragrance, so I picked it up by myself," Jiansheng replied.
…
Yunyu stared at the bowl of flowers. He wanted to protest since all he wanted was his box of fried chicken or spicy chicken. But since he had to do the ghosty-ghosty, he had to suck it up and eat these flowers.
[Ugh, I guess I have to wait a bit until I can tell Jiansheng, not to revolt.]
[Wait, is it still possible for him to not set up some revolution? Is there actually another way of using the Rewind Stone other than Huang Shu\'s downfall?]
...
[At least… I don\'t want Jiansheng to burn that Imperial Palace. Huang Shu would be shattered…]
…
Yunyu kept thinking about his own dilemma. He was the one who asked Jiansheng to burn the Imperial Palace out of spite, but he was also the one who wanted to pull back.
[Bai Yunyu, when will you learn? Don\'t you feel tired of the same thing over and over? This pandemonium of pain that you created by yourself.]
Yunyu understood that his pettiness really made everything worse than it should be, but it was almost like an urge, an unstoppable urge.
If there were people who couldn\'t stop their wrath, their lust, or their greed.
Yunyu felt that he was a special case of unable to hold his urge to stir up some more drama out of spite and pettiness.
[I\'m not a good person…]
Yunyu dwelled in his sadness for a while until he shook his head and tried to cheer up once more.
[If Pupa is here, that floating orange thing will definitely say that I can make it up! Yunyu, cheer up! Let\'s find the best way to finish the difficult worlds!]
[But first… where is Pupa?]