BXBX NOVEL Chapter 478 - No Feelings!
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His jade green eyes reflected her worrisome face amidst the half darkeness. Behind his questioning eyes, there was certain madness that kept pushing her back in fear.
Isabella had nowhere to run since he was standing right in front of her and the back was full of forest trees. With such little baby in her arms, she couldn't even attempt to walk away hastily because whatever he questioned, she had no answer for that.
No doubt, she had a deep respect for Silas who saved her life, showed a new light of life when she was in the darkest side of her life. Then he appeared like a light who guided her into the shine but feelings were far away from that.
She had lost almost everyone in her life including the last bit of hope that she had put over her child who was now probably playing in heaven. How could she even dare to think about Silas who was in the line of next ruler of this kingdom?
Silas stressed on his words, cornering her again to ask her in a broken voice,
" Why do you keep running away from me when I desperately want to get closer with you?"
Isabella pressed her lips together but nothing came out except some shuddering breaths. Surprisingly Tiara was calm in her arms, not crying as if she was silently giving them space to continue the conversation.
Isabella sutured finding it difficult to answer him,
" I..Duke Silas..we shouldn't..I mean.."
It was first time for Isabella to hear a man confessing himself so blatantly. With her husband Vincent, it was an arranged marriage and she didn't need to face any emotional struggling. From the moment, she was married to him, she instinctively began to believe that no matter what, her mind, body and soul should be belong to him. Hence, facing such questions and answering in a proper was difficult for her.
When nothing came out from her mouth, desperation killed Silas eternally. He was at least expecting an answer from her but it looked like she didn't even willing to talk about the subject. Silas mustered up his courage to question her, stepping forward again to see her gulping repeatedly,
" I thought, action speaks louder than words. I kissed you twice, Princess and nothing makes me happier to know that you recovered the memory of our first kiss. I don't want to push you but I can't.. wait.. What if you.."
" We shouldn't be doing this, Duke Silas.", came the stern voice of Isabella who finally lived upto her nervousness.
Silas's words stopped midway abruptly and the hurt flashed on his green eyes were clear. He swallowed down the rest of his words and waited for her to continue speaking.
Isabella had her eyes closing for a moment to process the words that just came out of Silas's tongue. She was afraid of hurting him and at the same time, truth couldn't be hidden for eternity. Lies would only push them to destruction, more heartbreak.
When she finally opened her eyes, she found the courage to connect their eyes, speaking truthfully,
" We can't be together, Duke Silas. Maybe it was just a hit of moment that you felt attracted towards me but we..we are impossible..I am like a fire in your life.."
" Then burn me, I don't care!", It was an instant reply coming from Silas who didn't hesitate to put her above everything in his life. He knew her truth and there was nothing that was holding back in his mind.
Surprise flicked from Isabella's eyes who fell in silence for a brief second after hearing his response. Isabella voice battled to come out rudely since he was looking down at her with all expectant eyes. His eyes carried the fear that he never felt before. The man who was feared by the entire kingdom was breaking out in cold sweat to hear the answer of her confession.
Isabella gulped hard, looking down at the crampled ground that kept getting cold as the night fell deeper into the woods. After a long lingering silence, she looked up at him, reasoning out in a slow yet serious voice,
" I am like a wildfire who will not only burn you but will burn your entire kingdom, Silas. I have nothing to give not even a child who can be the heir of your kingdom."
Silas gulped down the bitter feelings. Staring deep into her eyes to question again vulnerably,
" Is that the only reason that you don't me around you?"
Isabella broke their eye-contact. Ignoring the hurt that radiated from his eyes, she shook her head declining and resuming again after give it a pause,
" Vincent will always rule my heart.. After everything, I..I just don't want to be committed to anyone, Silas.. Besides..You deserve much more better. It would be a shame if we date.."
" So you are ignoring me just because you don't have any feelings for me?", Silas blurted holding back the vulnerability that threatened to come through his voice. His eyes laid on her blankly and watched the hesitation that she carried behind her expression.
Isabella took a moment to answer him. Sighing longingly, she replied shortly after looking down,
" Ye... Yes... But I really.."
" I got it, I got it. Please say no more! Please!", his emotions broke down when he cut off her words instantly before it could cut him deeper. It was him who expected too much from her. It was his choice to make a bond with her without letting her know. She was right from her side and there was nothing to blame her in this regard.
His reaction left her speechless, clueless. They knew each others for such a short time but he was already feeling so insecure about her.
Why didn't she notice that he had fallen so deeper for her?
Isabella's said no more words and saw him looking up to meet her eyes with a forced smile. Silas promised to her, bearing all the pains silently,
" I appreciate your truths, Princess but nothing can stop me from protecting you. Tell me, will you allow me to protect you always?"
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