Chapter 236 - [Bonus ] What If I Told You
[Bonus chapter because I intended to skip this day.]
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"To be honest, I do like it… I just don\'t want to develop more feelings towards you as I realized that I am suddenly forming one for you now."
Yu Yan\'s words rang in Wang Lei\'s mind for quite some time now. With him feeling good about the thought of Yu Yan saying that she is suddenly forming feelings for him now, he couldn\'t help but turn his sweet smile into a grin.
"You mean… you\'re suddenly developing feelings for me?"
Yu Yan\'s hint of pink on her face turned into a deeper hue. With her nodding her answer as if she was not ashamed to admit it, Wang Lei slightly arched a brow at her, completely interested as to why she didn\'t hesitate to answer.
"Yes… but we have to end it now."
"What?"
Wang Lei\'s smile suddenly turned into a frown. With him furrowing his brows together as he didn\'t like what he heard, he released Yu Yan from his hold and folded his arms in front of his chest as if for defense.
"And why are you saying it when we had not agreed on continuing?"
Yu Yan suddenly turned serious. With her remembering that the man before him is his boss and that the kiss could be just a thing that he\'d normally do because he is a womanizer and having such interactions is such a normal act for him, she sighed, now hesitant to answer.
"Are you sure that you really want me to answer that?"
Wang Lei\'s lips turned into a tight line. He didn\'t know whether he will like to listen to her answer, or just let her speak so he\'d know what she was thinking and feeling.
Heck, when did Yu Yan\'s opinions matter? Why did he suddenly start regarding her thoughts as something important?
With a single nod coming from Wang Lei as he pushed his worries aside, Yu Yan let out a small sigh then crossed her arms in front of her chest as well, being in a proper disposition to tell him what she thought.
"Other than you being the CEO of the company where I work at that makes you my boss, being in a relationship where we\'re together could be seen as something inappropriate."
"What?"
With the serious tone in her voice and with her tongue quite sharp as she was honest, Yu Yan further explained, wanting to make sure that she would set a boundary between them.
"I have a son, Mr. Wang Lei," she started, Yu Yan now more serious than she was a moment ago. "And besides… what you did was only the usual stuff that you do."
Wang Lei widened his eyes, not knowing how to digest what she said.
"What do you mean? You keep beating around the bush! What is it that you want to convey? Are you avoiding to push my buttons?"
"Well…" Yu Yan\'s lips turned into a tight line for a while before she nodded and spoke. "Actually, yes. I might lose my job."
Wang Lei scoffed.
"After the help that I\'ve done, you think that I\'ll fire you?"
Yu Yan felt quite bad now that he had pointed that out. He does have a point. With him helping her with her issue that she had long been struggling with and running away from, she sighed, then apologized to him.
"I\'m sorry. I just wanted to make things clear between us."
"Make things clear?" Wang Lei scoffed once more. "What is it that you really want to tell?"
"Your smile says it all, Mr. Wang Lei," Yu Yan answered, now polite as she addressed to him as Mr. Wang Lei even though they agreed to drop the formalities outside of work. "You were happy when you heard from me that I may be starting to form feelings towards you."
Wang Lei blinked his eyes a few times, quite flabbergasted that Yu Yan had seen through the curl of his lips.
Was it that obvious?
"Well?" Wang Lei cleared his throat, arching a brow at her once more as he urged her to tell him what she had always meant to say. "Tell me everything, then. Don\'t hold back."
"If you wish for me to do so, then… alright. But first, let me ask a question, Mr. Wang Lei."
"Go on."
It was quiet for a full three seconds. With another sigh coming from her, Yu Yan spoke, what she said next making Wang Lei\'s body freeze in place.
"Why did you kiss me?"
Wang Lei didn\'t know how to answer Yu Yan\'s question. With them staring into each other\'s eyes, neither of them stayed silent.
Yu Yan was eagerly waiting for Wang Lei\'s answer. With her trying her best to stay calm, her outer shell was successful into displaying her seriousness.
However, her heart and mind were the complete opposite.
The organ in her chest started to beat erratically in her chest and her brain inside her head started to imagine!
\'Oh my gosh! Did I just ask that?\'
\'Darn it! Is he going to answer?\'
\'If ever he\'s going to answer, what is he going to say?\'
\'Oh, no… why did I ask him that, anyway?\'
\'Am I that concerned about his answer?\'
\'But why did he really kiss me?\'
With no answer coming out from his boss until now, Yu Yan started to feel disappointed. Maybe deep down, she wanted to know why he had done it—why he had suddenly kissed her.
She wanted to think that she was different from the other girls because his kiss felt heavenly.
Did he feel the same? Did he feel elated like how she did when they kissed?
Or was it only her because it was her first kiss?
\'Oh… I hope it\'s not only me.\'
Not liking how she was thinking already, Yu Yan pushed her thoughts aside and then put her hands to the sides as it balled into a tight fist. She then spoke, wanting to end the conversation already.
"Forget it, Mr. Wang Lei," she started, getting his attention. "I don\'t want to talk about this anymore. Let\'s establish to end it here."
"What?" Wang Lei furrowed his brows together, wanting to explain his silence. "Yu Yan, what are you—"
"I have a son. I cannot develop feelings towards you so let this be our last sudden interaction. Let\'s act as if the kiss never happened."
Wang Lei didn\'t know why, but he didn\'t like what he was hearing. After abstaining himself from a lot of women because he was completely interested towards her, this is what he\'s hearing?
"Yu Yan, you\'re not allowing me to speak!"
"There is no need with the silence you displayed, Mr. Wang Lei. I am sure that you couldn\'t answer because you were thinking of the women you\'d like to get involved with in the future."
"What?"
Wang Lei widened his eyes in disbelief, his pride hurt with what he had heard.
"You know what I mean. You\'re active when it comes to gallivanting and interacting with women. I am no different for you when compared to other women and I know that you just had the urge to do it that\'s why you did it."
"Are you saying—" Wang Lei took a single step closer, his hands now on his hips. "That that is what you think of me?"
"I\'m sorry," Yu Yan apologized, not mincing her words. "I have to be honest, but yes. You being a womanizer is a perfect explanation why you suddenly wanted to kiss me."
Wang Lei couldn\'t answer. He let out another scoff with irritation etched on it this time as his lips curled into a sarcastic smile.
"I can\'t believe that\'s what you think of me. If that\'s really what you think of me, then why had you reciprocated?"
Yu Yan couldn\'t answer for a while. However, she gulped a bit, hoping that Wang Lei wouldn\'t realize her nervousness as she knew that she had scarred his ego.
"It\'s because I had never been kissed before. Yes, I may have a child but that wretched man was evil. He touched me, but his lips never claimed mine."
"Oh, I never asked for the details, Yu Yan. You better not tell me about that stupid man."
"I\'m sorry," she apologized, letting out another sigh as she further explained her answer. "Like I said, I never had been kissed and it had never crossed my mind with me thinking about my son all the time."
Both of them stayed silent. With Yu Yan now averting her gaze from him, she then excused herself, making Wang Lei irritated with how she got the last say.
"If you\'ll excuse me, I need to help my mother prepare for dinner."
However, before she could even get away from him, Wang Lei caught her by the wrist, surprising her with what he had said next.
"What if I told you that you were not like the other women I have interacted with and that our kiss was different? What if I told you that I want to prove myself worthy of you and that I meant it—sworn upon it?"